My Left Handwriting

Rindu

2011-07-11T16:50:00.000+08:00

Rindu untuk menulis di blog kembali lagi. Sekian lama rindu ini terpendam kerana saya tiada kemudahan internet di rumah. Rindu untuk meluahkan rasa hati yang terbuku selama ini.

Rasa gembira, marah sedih,pilu semuanya ada dihati. Ingin aku luahkan segalanya di sini kerana Muka Buku hanyalah sekadar luahan sepotong ayat.

Aku suka menulis mengikut gayaku tidak kira Bahasa Melayu atau Bahasa Inggeris walaupun ada yang berkata Bahasa Inggeris yang ku tulis itu salah tatabahasanya (yang berkata adalah graduan lulusan pengajaran Inggeris dan mengajar Bahasa Inggeris. Andai salah betulkan, bukan sekadar komen)

Banyak yang berlaku di dalam hidupku yang menggembirakan, tak kurang juga yang memeritkan.

Rindu menulis datang lagi walaupun aku terlalu sibuk dengan berbagai urusan kerja, rumah dan belajar.

Aku ingin menulis lagi secepat mungkin kerana dengan menulis di sini membuatkan hati dan perasaan ini sedikit terubat....

Handmades

2011-07-11T10:14:00.000+08:00

I remember i started to love bags since i was in secondary school. I believed it was inherited from my mother as she keeps on buying handbags and shoes everywhere she goes. When i was in Japan for student exchange program i bought 3-4 bags to bring back home. What a greedy 16 years old girl ;)

I keep on buying bags since then and most of the time i bought affordable bags and no branded bag (until now i have none!) . I love straw woven bags, or any kind of handmade particularly from Thailand and i get can a nice one at a very reasonable price and attractive too!

I like to be different from others and seems that my daughter loves it too. I would prefer buying no-name-nice-looking handbag rather than a FAKE LV, GUCCI or HERMES.

Last but not least, WHAT I LIKE THE MOST ABOUT HAVING HANDMADES because i can custom to my preferences and mine are different than others.

I like being DIFFERENT!

The entry is special for my entry to little-iro-iro and D'Amani Cottontherapy giveaways

After 15 years

2011-04-22T15:11:00.001+08:00

Our first met was in November 1995. We we among the lucky secondary school children to be selected in Student Exchange Program to Hyogo, Japan. There were 18 of us inclusive 2 official from Ministry of Education. We were 14 to 18 years of age and that was the first time i traveled abroad alone without the presence of my parents.
We had some inductions 2 days before departure and we were gathered in Grand Pacific Hotel (sounds like so famous Pan Pac back then) but it was like 3 star hotel at the corner of the road between Jalan Ipoh and Jalan Pekeliling (guys, i passed by the hotel everyday now)
We had a very good time there and after we came back we hardly met each other until i met Nina while i was studying in UiTM end of 1990s. Used to call Farah in Ipoh but couldn't get to talk to her and managed to know that Ima was in UUM but that time i was in Shah Alam. Ima, Farah and i were like 3 stooges that time. We always been together.
After 15 years, last December we managed to gather some of us to be in our first ever reunion.I took half day off just to be with them. It was so fun as all of us stay the same like 15 years before eventhough we are all 30s and have our own family. Still loud like before, fun like before.
We will be meeting again this year. Hope more to join. I miss u guys!!!

3 Stooges

I love her...

And her....

Group photo

Prezzie giving session.....pls ignore the penyibuks

Nobody change, only the ages and the sizes ;)

Pay It Forward 2011

2011-04-15T14:59:00.000+08:00

Liza.A & Liza M has created some giveaways...I definitely love giveaways. Sapa tak mau freebies kan.... therefore, i am posting this just for the sake of getting something from both of them.

I hope i win a lot. What i want from Liza.A definitely bags and i want from Liza M is a (or are) crochet head cover, owl pillow and a beautiful dress for my girl.......(the polka dot one looks nice ;)

That's all for now....tata....

Giveaways......Yeay!!!!!!!!!!

2011-04-14T09:26:00.001+08:00

Little-Iro-Iro is having 2nd giveaway this year and me sooooo..........excited to join.

For this time i wanna.........

1. Owen bag + matching wristlet
Outer Fabric : Corduroy/Cotton Canvas
Inner Fabric : Matchy cotton

2. Tote organizer for my not organize at all items in handbag/tote :D
Outer Fabric : Heavy cotton (i want it to be sturdy)
Inner Fabric : Cotton

Little Iro-iro Giveaways

2011-01-11T10:33:00.003+08:00

I am just trying my luck to get a giveaway from the most wonderful bag designer, Liza the owner of Little Iro-Iro. She is a great designer. Her stiches also gooooooooood. Aku pelik gak pasepa dia kata tak reti. Elok jer beg yg aku oder ngn dia....lawa siotttttttt..............folks, you should place an order or 2 with her. Me got 3 orders until today and eyeing on her clutch now *wink* *wink*

Sudahhhhhhh...........jgn melalut yer CheYah. As i have a lot of totes already, i want something else. Jeng....jeng....jeng....come on Liza, show ur talent babe! Ur wonderful designer.....

So ini dianya yg saya mahukan.....

1. Enadia Clutch + detachable sling (ini saya mahu tali yg halus jer + swivel hook yg besi)
I want the clutch so tht i can put my handphone, purse n pen and keep it in my baby bag. So tht i just bring only 1 bag everyday to work. Kalo bwk 2-3 beg mau tertinggai stgh dlm lrt

2.Sophie Car organizer.
I want this organizer as my beloved hubby said i selalu sepahkan kereta dgn segala maknikam brg2 i. So this one i can throw everything in and nobody can kacau my things.

Err....boleh ker 2 nih? boleh la kot...Liza, if i won. you may choose any bag that you would love to make for me. Yeayyyyyyyyy!!!!!!!!!!!!!! (melampau ini emak budak ;) )

For outer fabric, i want Saralisa Fabric of Ikea

For inner i will go for normal cotton fabric (similar to my baby jue tote) yg Liza buat for me. So yummy......

Or....can i go for Denim / Curduroy Liza? can arr? :D

Finger cross i want this bag/these bags so badly.

Preloved to Let Go

2011-01-04T14:31:00.001+08:00

I am letting go my stroller as my little darling won't be able to fit in anymore.

Brand : Combi
Color : Navy Blue & Grey
Product Description :
1. Durable
2. Easy handling
3. Lightweight
4. Safe (comes with harness)
5. Come with shopping basket
6. Still in good condition (8.5/10)

Price : RM300.00 exclude shipping.
Note : this stroller has some marks due to usage. Seriously not for fussy buyer

P/S : sorry for not so nice looking pic. Using my hp to take photos. ;)

Anniversary

2010-12-14T13:53:00.000+08:00

Today is my 6th anniversary with this conglomerate. Yes....it's been already 6 years being with this big SD. I am proud being one of the people of SD. I was among the peoples who involved in the merger exercise during 2006

My favorite boss is still H who is now an MD for one of the motor subsidiaries. Hey boss, can we be in INVESTOR RELATIONS team again? I miss my IR job since i was required to leave the team. It was ur fault la boss....who ask u to go motor???? Btw, my present boss also left the company as well as leaving the country soon. Good luck LCL....learn to cook or else u'll suffer with the mat salih over there. I know that u r not a mat salih's food eater.

Since past 6 years i learnt a lot from this big SD. Making a lot of friends all over the world of big SD. Knowing a lot of outsiders, the bankers, the analysts, the fund managers (this is when i know about Mark Mobius....it was thru u la H).

I have fallen and went up again while with the big SD. I failed my 1st sem of BACC due to heart broken episode and finally met my beloved husband and went up again with good exam results...pa, i'm still waiting my hadiah la. I got A for my accounts paper as promised to u.

Due to my cheerful, talkative and sometimes quite fierce in this big SD, i managed to get what-so-ever required by the bosses. I got good bonuses too. Waiting to get ratings of 5 for my future performance appraisal.

I hope that my big SD will keep going strong no matter what and hope to get big bonuses, well paid increments, benefits (i wanna 90 days maternity leave can arr? still have 4 to meet my quota of 5 surviving children)

Can't wait to be promoted as well.... :D

XOXO

I noticed that my skills of writing wasn't quite good since past few months. May need to write more here.

Che'gu @ Ticher @ Guru

2010-12-13T14:40:00.001+08:00

Lama dah tak tulis apa2 tang ni. 1 sebab utaman aku bizi di tahap tak tau nak habaq. By the time balik rumah pukoi 8 lebih nak pelekoh anak bagi lena dgn mak skali jalan......

Hari ni aku nak menciluk sedikit tulisan Dr Wali untuk menulis berkenaan tajuk di atas. Agak sedikit patriotik bahasa melayu aku reni sebab aku skolah di kampung laman, negeri perlih tercinta walaupun sedikit cemuih dengan keadaan politikus disana yg mcm kucin ka rimau ka tatau la.

Aku nak boh tang ni nama2 cikgu yg jd cikgu kelas dan lain2 cikgu yg mengajaq aku dr tadika smpi la form 5. Untuk makluman, aku tadika 2 taen dan silibus masa tu sama jaaaa......yuran 6 ringgit sebulan. Tadika Kemas....cikgu pon kemaih2 belaka.

Tadika I - Cikgu Melesia (cengey nak mampuih)
- Cikgu Rosnah (sucessor cikgu melesia time tu dia pindah pi pauh kot)
Tadika II - Cikgu Saadiah
1 Teratai - Cikgu Azizah Ahmad (mak nakan norazlina redzuan, merangkap mak nakan mona azwa kawan aku di SMD)
2 Teratai - Cikgu Tengku Zalila Tengku Kamaruzzaman (kerabat diraja Perlis. lawa org dia. muka cam mat salih hasil perkahwinan bercampur)
3 Teratai - Cikgu Mazni
4 Teratai - Cikgu Norlida Ahmad
5 Teratai - Cikgu Arpah
6 Teratai - Cikgu Norhana Padzillah Ahmad (merangkap half sister sepupu aku)

Lokasi sekolah rendah : Sekolah Tengku Budriah, Arau

1 Bijaksana - Cikgu Che Yun Idris (penggunaan bahasa melayu baku tahap dewan bahasa)
2 Aktif - Cikgu Kam Chai Wan
3 Aktif - Ustaz Zolkapli
4 Rasional - Cikgu Norhayati (kak dan adik mengajaq 1 skolah yg sama. dua2 ajaq english)
5 Rasional - Cikgu Maznah Mat Kassim yg disayang. pantang kelih dia la ni aku komfem keluaq ayaq mata. awat tah. agaknya sebab dia usaha ajaq kami add math smpi PASS exam SPM kot

Sekolah peringkat menengah adalah Sekolah Menengah Derma, Kangar, Perlis.

Berasa lagu nak tulih lagi tapi esok la sambung. Agak kebizian petang ni nak perabih keja......

XOXO - cikgu tadika cheyah ada hantaq mesej ke inbox FB cheyah pasai cheyah komen 1 gambaq kt fb yg dia dolu ni cengey nak mampuih. paksa cheyah minum susu lemu (cheyah ni anak mak, tak perlu minum susu lemu dah) sampai muntah di skolah. ma pancoq tu ada lagi, pancoq tu bulih sahkan kisah tragis ni.

Tagged : Mommy

2010-08-18T15:32:00.000+08:00

Kak Anne tagged me with these few questions. Sori la Kak Anne, me busy bee mommy...nak hop to blog org pun tak sempat :))

1. How old were you when your first child was born?
29

2. What month and year was your youngest child born?
Haven't decided yet. Waiting for me to conceived then i will tell the whole world. :D

3. How did you feel when you first found out you were pregnant?

Excited. I am carrying our gene.

4. Who did you tell first?

My other half la. It was early in the morning i hold the test kit right in front of his eye.

5. How many pounds/kg did you gain during your first pregnancy?

4kg

6. What did you crave while you were pregnant?

Chocolate, ice cream, sweet things and Tebu...tapi sampai ke sudah tak dapat. I cannot take asam2.

7. Did you find out the gender of your first child? Why or why not?

We didn't know as she was premature and during that time it hardly be seen as my amniotic fluid leaked and the amount reducing.

8. Did you have any complications during your pregnancy?

Yes. I had PPROM (Preterm Premature Rupture of Membrane)

9. How much did your first child weigh?
1060g

10. Was your first child early, late, or on time?

Ver much early. She was premature.

11. What is the most difficult challenge or health issue that any of your children have faced?

Complication during ventilated - anemia, apnea, ROP, infections

12. What's your favorite part of being a mom?

When she come and hug me and kiss me on my right n left cheeck, my lips again and again and again until my face full of her saliva. Seeing her development day by day makes me feel so proud and thankful for the Allah gift to us.

13. Do you think it's easier to be a mom or a dad?

Both play an important role to complete each other as a parents

14. What is the best piece of advice you could give to someone who is about to have their first child?

Thank to Allah for the precious gift. Take a good care of them especially their health and safety.

15. Did you always think you'd have kids?

Definitely

16. What's been the biggest surprise about motherhood?
Looking at her development now. I saw her heartbeat stop, i saw her in pain during first 2 months she was born and i will be offended if people compared her with other babies as she is the best gift given by Allah to me.I know my little girl and i sacrificed a lot for her. Do not simply say anything. She is MINE!

17. Are there things you miss about life before kids?
None. We are happier with her presence. Wake up in the middle of the night became routine now.

18. How many children do you have?

ONE. At the moment. ;)

19. Do you plan to have any more children?

YES! YES! YES! How many not too sure, just enough to fit in 6 seater Estima. :D

20. Who's the mom that you admire most?

Mothers who are having special kids. They are superb! I saw few mothers sending their children with learning disabilities to school accross my office. Most of them are Down Syndrome. Feel like to hug them. You are so wonderful mothers.

And I would like to tag my frens.. a mommy :

My Accounts Lecturer SUCKS!

2010-08-17T15:28:00.000+08:00

Ini adalah entry geram aku dgn lecturer accounts yg mengajar aku sem nih. Bengang siot dpt lecturer cenggini.

I don't mean tu curse her but i cannot stand with her attitude. Brief description on her. She teach us basic accounting this semester. Phd holder from London.....London tau!!!! Being a lecturer more than 10 years....10 years, okkeh! Bukan 10 months.

1st class....she seems young, i think maybe around mid 30. A good lecturer perhaps. She begins the class with some powerpoints presentation on the introduction. Fine, i guess this maybe just an intro. During the class she nagged on a few minor little thing. She left out the accounting cycle things etc which i think it wasn't right. She should teach from the very basic things as to ensure the students understand about accounting. This is very technical subject. Should be very detailed than what she has done during the class.The class end with assignments n quiz. I started to feel something but i just let it go eventough i dont feel good attending her class.

2nd class....we are supposed to learn adjustments, some inventory treatment perpetual n periodic method as well as LIFO n FIFO. Note to my uitm friends, we learnt this on costing during diploma. I think most of the time she nagged. Luckily i still can recall most of the things and we in a group of 5 do the exercises in the class while she nagged and being manja-manja mesra with the boys. Eeeee......meluat!!!! I interrupted her teaching when she was struggling to make the students understand about UNEARNED REVENUE....it it our liability la mangkuk.....they customer pay deposit/prepayments for the service rendered. 2 of my geng bas sekolah withdraw from taking this paper because they don't understand anything from her teaching. I got frustrated because i encourange them to hang on as i can help and teach them during dicussions.

3rd class.....she introduced Bank Reconciliation and we do some revision on the Assignment 2 given. What irritates me the most when she said she doesn't have the answer as she hasn't done it. Helllooooooooooooo!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! a PHD holder tak buat revision before classes ker? After few attempt with some of us having the same answer then she admit that she asked her students to do it and she didn't do herself. WHAT THE F@*K!!!! Kepala otak hanggggggg!!!!

Kalo lagu ni mengajaq, baik aku yg takeover class. Let me teach my friends. Being among the excellent in the class (my other half said u takyah pi kelas...u dh penah ambik subject ni dulu), i feel worry about the other students especially my geng bas sekolah as they don't really understand about accounting. I am not so excellent but i can still recall what have been taught as i took accounting for my SPM as well as Diploma and my non-graduate degree.

She being a lecturer should teach the students from zero. Know your students before you start teaching. Please mind your words as we are adults, not school children. Do not nagged on what should and shouldn't we wear to class. Please focus more on teaching than nagging. You are not school prefect. Dah la mulut cam S*!L. Skati jer nk cakap apa. Ikut sedap mulut jer...tak reti nk hormat org langsung!

I wish i can excell in this subject. I initiate to teach my friends from the basic accounting i.e classification of accounts as well as debit n credit entry. I will keep on teaching untill they understand and know how to do it. I hope they can do well in the exam.

This make me think of being a lecturer to educate and guide students. Be a good one. Much better than her. I wonder how she teach full time student. Patutkah aku menghalalkan setiap sen yang aku bayar utk dia mengajar kami?

Dear varsities, please ensure your lecturer can teach. Please do not choose them merely on their exam grades as not all excellent students can teach.

I dunno how did she managed to be a lecturer? Don't waste tax payers money if you have this kind of attitude!You are not worth their money.

Should i make an official complaint to the faculty?

XOXO....

I missed my lecturers in Uitm....n i missed their nagged too... :D

Puan Laily Umar

Puan Sharifah Fadzlon Abd Hamid

Puan Rohana Alias

Puan Kalsom Said

And other lecturer in Faculty of Accountancy UiTM Shah Alam who teach me from 1997 till 2002.

Thanks for educating and guiding me.

How I see things recently

2010-08-04T16:02:00.001+08:00

First day of holding my little Safiyyah....44 days after she was born. Wrapped in 3 pcs of cloth and yet she is smaller than my hand

My little Safiyyah recently (pic taken in May)

I found out that Raden Galoh, someone whom i know writes about her journey of fighting breast cancer (Kanser Payu Daraku) lost her battle to fight the 2nd attack of the cancer few weeks ago. I don't really read her blog without any reason. Maybe kind of busy or something. After known that she has passed away from her friend who is also my colleague, i started to read her blog from the beginning. (I am that type of person, i will write someone's blog from the beginning until the recent)

While browsing her blog, i found an interesting posting dated May 3rd 2009 by Siti Marlina Zainal about her surviving years of battling breast cancer and how did she managed to carry her first little angel with only 1 left breast as she had her masectomy and how she fought till her last breath carrying her son (the baby was born premature due to her health condition) After 2 1/2 month gave birth to Qays Aiden, she lost he battle and return to the Creator. Al-Fatihah for both of them.

Previously, I will tell peoples that i am not ready to have another child due to my study, my work etc.But after reading their blogs, i am now see things in differently. I want to do everything in this world. I want to graduate and soon having masters degree, i want to have a small business so that i can be at home raising my children, i want to make my husband happy, i want to swim again, loosing weight (as my other half claimed that i am FAT) and i want to have more children. I can't wait until i am ready which i do not know when i will be ready but for sure i am ready now. (ready ker?)

I remember the first time touching her on the 2nd day i gave birth to her and i can only hold her after 44 days she was born. The fellings which i can never imagine and i can never tell. I want to have that feelings again and yet I am still afraid of having preterm labor again but for this time i need to save a lot for our next coming baby(ies) in case that i have the preterm labor again. I will start my business soon and trying to conceive in the next few months or maybe next year. Insyaallah...i hope everything will be fine.

XOXO...........

I impliedly write it here in case if my other half read my blog as i won't let him know directly......satgi dia melompat sakan plak. :D

I sew!

2010-07-16T16:40:00.000+08:00

To those peoples who knows me please do not laugh to my tittle today. Yes, i can sew now. Years back while i was still schooling my mom keep telling me to learn sewing as everytime there's holes on my pants, few buttons dropped off my shirts, badges for my new school uniforms etc22 i will passed to my mom and she will sew for me. Everytime she sew she will keep telling me to learn and same goes to my grandma. She will keep repeating the same stories telling me that my mom can sew when she was at aged 9. Aiyyakkk...........so boring! :))

Being a bit 'tomboyish' during my school time, i would never learn anything so called home making thingy except for cooking. I learnt to cook from my late father and definately i can cook like him ( i missed the moment with him so much)

Everytime the same nagging that i heard i will just ignored. One time my mom said..."wait untill u have to sew your husbands' pants or whatsoever" n i said...i will send to the tailor" as simple as that. Hehehehehe.........i keep ignoring things about learning sewing and even the time when my husband said that his mother can sew. I just keep my mind out of sewing until we have out Little Safiyyah.

I saw a lot of beautiful dresses, toys being sold online and same goes to my friend who sew smocking dress for girls. I started to adore and have intentions to sew. I keep asking a sewing machine from my husband and he ignores everytime i asked for it.

One day i bought a cute tiny sewing machine just for a starting point for me to sew. And i made it!!!!! Up to date i managed to sew a circle skirt for myself, pillow, whale shape plushies and a backpack for our little girl. Yeay!!!!! and i 'm so proud of myself. As a beginner, i may not sew perfectly but at least i can do a few things and most of it i will refer to the patterns available online.

I am thinking of doing a few more things and getting ready for my online shop soon.

XOXO.......

Read about Piddix founder.....im thinking of doing it within 5 years from now. Will i be able to do it?.

Pemakanan Anak Anda

2010-06-18T11:01:00.000+08:00

Terbaca satu artikel bertajuk "Tak pernah makan nasi" di Harian Metro hari ini. Satu artikel yang menarik perhatian saya hari ini.

Teks artikel tersebut adalah seperti berikut.

Bagi Mohd Faiz Hilman Ahmad Edwin,Mohd Faiz Hilam Ahmad Edwin yang hanya makan biskut, kek, roti, nuget dan bebola ikan sebagai sarapan pagi, tengah hari dan malam.

Ibu kanak-kanak itu, Norzarihan Hashim, 35, berkata dia pernah cuba memberi bubur nasi kepada Mohd Faiz ketika berusia enam bulan, namun anaknya itu memuntahkan semula selepas disuap.

Katanya, anaknya seolah-olah geli apabila melihat sisa nasi melekat pada jari dan sering menyembunyikan diri sebaik cuba disuap makanan itu.

“Walaupun akur dengan keadaan menimpa Mohd Faiz, namun saya tetap mencuba untuk memberinya nasi, tetapi dia tetap bertindak menutup mulut dan melarikan diri mengelak disuap menyebabkan saya buntu.

“Malah, dia sering menjauhkan diri setiap kali saya dan suami serta adik-beradiknya yang lain menjamu selera di meja makan,” katanya ketika ditemui semalam.

Menurutnya, dia sentiasa membawa bekalan biskut setiap kali membawa anaknya itu keluar bersiar-siar termasuk menghadiri kenduri perkahwinan disebabkan tabiatnya yang tidak suka memakan nasi.

Katanya, dia pernah membawa Mohd Faiz berjumpa bomoh untuk merawat tabiatnya itu, namun masih tiada perubahan, sebaliknya anaknya tetap tidak mahu memakan nasi.

“Saya hairan dengan masalah menimpa Mohd Faiz kerana adiknya, Maisarah Afia yang baru berusia tujuh bulan sudah mula memakan bubur nasi manakala anak sulung, Marsha Erlina, 8, juga tidak menghadapi masalah menjamah nasi,” katanya.

Mohd Faiz yang kini belajar di Taska Abim, Parit adalah seorang kanak-kanak yang aktif dan membesar seperti rakan sebaya lain.

Malah, dia bercita-cita mahu menjadi doktor dan begitu meminati mata pelajaran Matematik dan Sains serta aktif dalam sukan bola sepak.

Norzarihan berkata, dia akan membawa anaknya berjumpa dengan pakar pemakanan dalam tempoh terdekat dan berharap masalah dihidapi anaknya itu dapat diatasi.

Sebagai seorang ibu, saya tidak selalu menggalakkan anak memakan nasi setiap masa walaupun sedar nasi adalah makanan ruji bagi rakyat Malaysia dan Asia keseluruhannya.

Anak saya mula mengambil makanan pejal ketika berusia 1 tahun. Saya mulakan dengan bijirin, buah-buahan yang dikisar halus dan bubur nasi. Walaubagaimanapun, seminggu saya hanya akan menyediakan hidangan nasi sebanyak 2-3 kali sahaja dan pada hari-hari yang lain saya akan menyediakan pelbagai jenis hidangan kepada anak saya.

Antara hidangan yang saya sediakan adalah :

1. Kentang lenyek beserta sos (brown gravy)
2. Makaroni sup dengan ayam,brokoli,kentang dan lobak merah
3. Labu dengan oats dan brokoli
4. Makaroni minestrone (sup tomato)
5. Spaghetti dengan sup sayuran (bunga kobis, asparagus, lobak merah, kentang)
6. Sandwich telur dan keju
7. Nasi goreng cina beserta sayuran
8. Kentang goreng, sayur campur dan ayam panggang (ayam dicarikkan dan goreng tanpa minyak dengan sayur)
9. Lempeng berinti sayur dan mayonis

(Jenis hidangan bertambah apabila umur anak meningkat)

Saya juga menyediakan sendiri puri buah-buahan seperti yang boleh didapati di pasaraya seperti puri epal, puri pear, puri pisang dan puri mangga. Walaupun lebih mudah membeli dari kedai, saya lebih gemar memasak sendiri kerana seandainya anda membeli dari kedai atau pasaraya, susah tentu makanan bayi tersebut akan mengandungi bahan-bahan kimia untuk memanjangkan jangka hayat makanan tersebut. Untuk membuat puri buah-buahan amatlah mudah. Anda cuma perlu merebus buah-buahan tersebut bersama sedikit kulit kayu manis sehingga lembut dan kemudian kisar.
Untuk mangga dan pisang anda hanya perlu terus kisar dan hidangkan

Selain daripada itu, cara menghidang juga amat penting. Ini telah dipraktikkan oleh masyarakat Jepun sekian lama yang dipanggil Bento. Saya telah pun membeli dan menjual alat-alat untuk membuat bento untuk menarik perhatian kanak-kanak untuk makan makanan seimbang.

Sebagai seorang ibu, saya berpendapat bahawa ibu-ibu perlu kreatif untuk menarik minat anak-anak untuk makan. Sebolehnya elakkan makan makanan yang diproses seperti nuget,hotdog,fishball. Sebaiknya cuba belajar membuat sendiri makanan tersebut atau gantikan dengan bergedil, tauhu dan tempe. Hias buah-buahan dan sayuran supaya nampak lebih menarik. Dapatkan buku untuk resipi makanan untuk anak anda. Yang terbaru buku hasil tulisan Puan Wardina Safiyyah bertajuk "Mama Saya Lapar". Terdapat berbagai-bagai tajuk buku dalam Bahasa Inggeris berkenaan pemakanan kanak-kanak. Resipi percuma juga boleh didapati melalui internet. Kita boleh ubah mengikut citarasa kita.

Untuk ibu yang mengalami masalah seperti kanak-kanak tersebut, saya cadangkan agar anda menggunakan sudu apabila ingin menyuapkan anak anda makan serta hias makanan anak anda dengan menarik untuk menggalakkan dia makan. Anda juga boleh menukar nasi kepada karbohidrat yang lain seperti roti, kentang, ubi keledek dan sebagainya.

Diucapkan selamat berjaya kepada ibu-ibu seluruh Malaysia.

XOXO.....

Anak daraku suka makan semua benda yg mama masak

2 Months Stories

2010-06-16T16:53:00.000+08:00

Finally, after 5 months of hard work of doing assignments, studying, sacrifice my sweet times with my beloved husband and our lovely little Safiyyah my exam results was released yesterday.

Had 2 A- and 1 B+. The worst thing was my B+ is the subject which i think the easiest to get an A. Tensen tol laaaa.......but i take it as my mistake for taking the subject for granted. Amikkkkkk.....padan muko!!!

So this semester i will need to double my work besides i promised to my Geng Bas Sekolah that i will teach them Accounting and Microeconomics. Hopefully i can still remember the debit and credit transactions as well as demand and supply curves. So guys, i am already started reviewing the books and writing down some notes for all of you. Kot ada yg nak withdraw lg mmg nk kena la tuh!

I am getting new interest now which is sewing.......YES, I am serious about it!!!!. I sew pants for my daughter as well as Curry Puff shape pillow for her. y curry puff? that is the easiest shape can i do and besides it was a leftover cloth which i tried to make some seat pouch for her.

Our Little Safiyyah started to stand and move few little steps forward since a week ago. It's been a long time for us to wait and watch her little footsteps. A great achievement for her being a preemie. TETAPI........kalo time merajuk, mengamuk seduit pun x guna. Dia punya tunjuk perangai....adoi laaaaaaa......peninnnnn!!!!

On the other hand, i did apply for an education assistance which the staff will be able to claims all the expenses throughout the duration of studies and will be reimburse by the company. It is some kind of scholarship but the amount paid is only 75% of the total cost of studies. Unfortunately, she put a negative comment on my application. By means that she will not allow me to take leave excepts for exam.

My performance appraisal this year affected by her mood. Getting just above the average rate, i was told that i am not accomodating enough for the department. Until now, i do not know what does she meant by not accomodating dan aku pun tak kuasa nak tanya. What i do this year was i did not confronted her. I just let her talk n talk and signed off the form. Rejecting my request for attending treasury training, she mentioned in the form that i will need to go for BASIC ACCOUNTING & FINANCE course. Being an Accounting Diploma holder and 3 years working experience in various accounts department, i have enough BASIC KNOWLEGDE in Accounting. I don't need that. I need something related to work. With a comment that i will be promoted as an executive if i do well in my degree, make me sick of it. Ok, fine! I'll take the challenge. I will get a good grade! A GOOD ONE!!!! After i graduated, i will no longer work for you! This is a promise to myself. I don't want to see your face anymore!

XOXO....

My dearest hubby....

It's because your doa' and your blessing i get good grades though i may lack of time studying due to my illness during weeks of exams.

My dear Humaira Safiyyah...

I am so sorry to sacrifice our precious moments together. I promise you to have good grades until so that i will have 1st Class Degree.

My lovely Mak....

Thanks for being with me all the time. For taking care of my daughter while i need to study prior to my exam.

About the mother and kids

2010-04-30T14:29:00.000+08:00

I was reading The Star today when i discover an interesting topic a on a WHY NOT? column written by Raslan Sharif tittled Job Hopping For Motherly Care.

"If you believe parenting cannot be left to the maid, then a two-income family is out of the question.
THERE is this saying, and I’m sure you’ve heard it before: You don’t know what you’ve got until it’s gone.
Oftentimes, we take for granted certain things because we’ve always had it. We only sense a loss, and sometimes express belated gratitude, when we no longer have those things.
I might sound like an old man right now, but bear with me.
There is a state that is to my mind even worse than that which I have just described. It is when you are at a loss from the outset because you have not even had that particular thing in the first place.
It’s not just that you don’t know what you’re missing; it’s also being deprived, without you really knowing it, especially if you’re still a child.
I remember my school days clearly, or rather, being home after a day at school.
My mother, a full-time housewife who was once a teacher, would always be at home when my younger brother and I got back from school.
She would have cooked lunch for us and, throughout the rest of the day, would ensure that we kept to our schedule of homework, study and play, though not necessarily in that order.
In short, she mothered us.
Throughout our schooling years, my mother would always be at our side, a constant presence who would do the things that any mother would, circumstances permitting.
My father, who was a civil servant, would often be home for lunch and be back from work by around 5pm, well before the sun went down.
And probably like any other child, I only “see” this fortunate environment that I grew up in when the circumstances that I find myself in as an adult, a father and husband evoke such memories.
It would be safe to say that raising a family today is quite different in some ways to what my parents went through.
My parents raised four children. Today, many parents would find it difficult to raise a family of that size without both having to work to generate the income necessary for the task.
In fact, it can be difficult enough if you had just one child, especially during the first few years of your working life.
I, of course, speak from experience. When my wife and I were expecting our son nearly 11 years ago, I had to find a new job that paid better, and I got one just about a couple of months before he was born.
This is not say that all was fine with regard to money after that. My wife still had to go back to work, and if it weren’t for the big help in various forms from family and friends in those early years, it would still not have been enough to see us through.
My parents and parents-in-law practically raised my son, with other family members chipping in their time and effort now and then. We would only see him later in the evenings, when we took him home, and during weekends.
When my daughter was born four years later, we had to get a maid, which was the more financially viable option to the alternative of my wife quitting her a job.
So in the mornings, my wife and I would send my son to school before heading for work. My parents would pick him up and send him home later in the afternoon. Meanwhile, my in-laws and the maid looked after our daughter.
As usual, we would only get to see our children at night when we got back from work.
This went on until about two years ago when I told myself that this could not go on, and all those memories about my mother always being at my side when I was growing up came flooding back.
Here were my children, in their early years, when they need their parents the most, and we weren’t there. There would be only a few years before they hit their teens and, as we all know, teenagers don’t really want to be even within 10km of their parents.
My wife and I agreed that we needed to strengthen family bonds and that at least one of us had to watch over our children and see them grow before his or her very eyes.
So I looked for another job and got one that enabled my wife to quit work and devote as much time as was necessary to the children.
I consider myself lucky as I know many parents out there do not have this option. I am not saying that children who grow up without at least their mother being that constantly soothing presence that my mother was will turn out for the worse.
But I think having one parent around would not hurt, if not be advantageous to, the growth and development of the children.
> Raslan Sharif will make sure he and his children remain ever grateful to everyone who helped when help was needed."

Honestly i dont really read any articles written by columnist as i found that those write ups are not interesting to me (This is my personal point of view, no offence) eventhough they are good writers there.

But his article really interest me as he has the same thought with me. I am thinking of one day quitting my 9 to 5 job and be a full time home manager to manage my family especially the kids. Contrary to him, my mom work for a sugar producer in the north while both my brother and i being taken car by our grandmother.

During the grown up period, we were close to our grandma compared to our mother and me, being a father's daughter i am close to my father that time until when i was 18 when i normally talk about school to my father as i think my mother doesn't understands me well.

Now, having a beautiful growing up little princess i am thinking and might be considering being at home taking care of her instead of working 9-5. Just to ensure that i can raised my own kids instead of asking my mom for help or getting a maid to take care of my children. I want my kids to be close to me.

I am thinking of doing something from home, a small business maybe if my husband alone can support our family. To me, working from home you may have a flexible working hours and can spare more time at home with the kids. Some home managers make a lot of money by doing a small business from home. (I should have a business plan by now). I envy some of my friends who are home managers and can do some good business from home (you know who you are)

I might doing this one day. People may or may not agree for what i am doing but making myself and my family happy is the most gracious and important to my life.

Publish Post

XOXO....

My other half would be the happiest person if i tell him about this. :D

Me n Skool

2010-04-23T15:44:00.000+08:00

I am so glad to go back to school again. I am happy to be among my 'geng bas sekolah'. We are all together to complete our assignments, study group and even we go out for lunch together.

I enjoy doing my study now compared to the previous course which i took half way, half heartedly few years back .

Thanks to my husband for taking care of our little Safiyyah while i am attending the classes and discussions during weekends.

Many people wonder why i wanted to go to school again. First, i want like to obtain a Bachelor Degree. Second, i want to get promoted and higher salary. Third, it is for my self satisfaction. Fourth, i want to enhance my skill and knowledge.

A lot of my friends encouraged me to study. Their words of motivation really helps. Unfortunately, someone said to me "dah tua2 pun nak study lagi" (u r too old to study). I dunno why she said that to me. I know that she's graduated and being an ENGINEER now. But at least have some respect on what other people are doing. I don't need your blessing to do my study. And i don't even need your money to pay for my school fees. If you dont like it, u better keep your mouth shut! My father did his study until the day he died. So do i. I will keep myself studying untill the day i die. People who think that other peoples are too old to study are STUPID! If you are not interested to do it, do not bad mouth on others. Let them do whatever they want and whatever they wished to.

Don't be my friend if you have that STUPID attitude!

Happry Secretaries Day

2010-04-21T14:08:00.000+08:00

Dear all secretaries,

Happy Secretaries Day to all of you. May our good effort and hard work recognize by the bosses. I received some gifts from few banks for my day today.

Thanks to Denise & Mastura of Corporate Banking CIMB, Viviane & Norsiah of Mizuho, Jamal & Sow Leng of Credit Suisse.

Will upload the pics soon (cable lupa nak bawak la plak)

Mama's First Day At School

2010-01-29T11:58:00.000+08:00

My first class begin last week saturday. It was Komunikasi Perniagaan i.e Business Communication which is the only subject that we have to sit and it is in Malay Language. Aiiyyyyoooooo.....my Malay language is SPM standard only, not Uni standard. Die laaaaa........

My first Malay presentation after i completed my diploma 10 years ago was horrible.

(The translations as follows)

"Dear all i've been using English language spoken and written since i left school and my spoken Malay is very bad as i will be using my Northern Accent during the conversation. My apology for that."

I keep using few English term which some of the classmates will help me to translate it to Malay. Hadoi laaaaa.........susah betoi. It was extremely difficult eventhough i had a distinction A1 in my Malay language for SPM. Normally for written Malay i would sit back and relax and think an appropriate word to use as previously i used to help few bosses to translate English letter to Malay especially when we deal with government bodies.

My Management class was also awesome as i see the overall view as a working adult. I don't need to memorize all the things as i need to understand the overall process and applied to my daily working life. I see all these differently compared to my full time study before which i memorize all the notes and answer it on paper which i dont even understand what it is all about.

I have 2 assignments to complete and i hope that i can do well in both subjects.

XOXO....

Sometimes is very hard when the other half being 'inconsiderable' on every single thing. Should another half cry, laugh, frust, hate the other half for being that way?

Cinta Sejati

2010-01-29T09:33:00.000+08:00

Cinta sejati yang bisa
Memberi tanpa harus menerima
Dia membawa damai dan bahagiakan jiwa
Tuk semua manusia
Hanya cinta sejati yang bisa
Bertahan tanpa mengenal waktu
Takkan pernah sirna bagaikan karang di samudera
Kan abadi tuk selamanya
Seperti itulah cintaku untuk dirimu
Tulus dan apa adanya
Datang dari sebuah rasa sucinya hati
Atas nama cinta sejati
Dan bila engkau telah mengerti
Berapa besarnya artinya cinta
Hingga setiap nafas yg mengalir di tubuhmu
Mengandung cinta dari yg kuasa
Setiap nafas yang mengalir di tubuhmu
Mengandung cinta dari yg kuasa....

This song performed by an Indonesian group called Element. A love song for mama's beloved friend, Aunty Tinie accountant turn professional photographer. Whoever need a pro for their photo session can look for her. (Aunty....ni mama tulong promote nih......25% bley? hahahaha.....)

A happy ending love story which mama was also involve part of it. Being a consultant, a peer (ni time nak pi skodeng la), a listener (time2 genting menghadapi masalah Di Persimpangan Dilema) and few other things that i joined in the be her 'komplot'.....mama so happy to see both of them are happily married now (the benchmark is both of them are so 'bulat' compared to few years before. :D

Have a wonderful marriage and wonderful life together....

To Aunty Tini....mama will always be a listener, a peer (with a little escort cum bodyguard now), an a consultant like before...and i cherished every moment that we have together for the past 17 years (emo plak pagi2 nih)

XOXO......

4 ZARS is having a lunch date today in Sogo....(green color belongs to rumah Sheikh Ahmad, Skolah Derma)

Mama is going to school

2010-01-22T16:01:00.000+08:00

I enrolled to a Bachelor Degree programme last week in International Islamic University. It is a part time degree programme which requires me to attend the classes forthnightly every 1st and 3rd weekend of the month and this requires a lot of sacrife for three of us, my husband, myself and our little Safiyyah.

My classes will begin next week and the duration for the course is merely 4 years which i have 11 semesters to complete with merely 40 subjects to finish. Half of the subjects i already sit and passed and some with distinction when i did my diploma before but i may not taking any credit transfer as i was graduated almost 10 years ago. I think it is good to refresh eventhough it takes me longer time to graduate.

I'm a bit nervous as i need to work harder than before as i have a lot of responsibility now including work, being a wife and a mother at the same time. I hope that i can do well and be one of the top student and later obtain a scholarship for my master degree.

XOXO

Orang kata jgn berangan tinggi sangat takut tak jadi....tapi bak kata kawan aku....kalo takdak angan2 takkan jadi KLCC tuh.
Congratulations to En. Hisham Hamdan, our group head . He is now EVP of Energy & Utilities for immediate effect.
You inspire me a lot. Thank you for your encouragement for me to pursue my degree and i hope i will be the first lady Special Officer to EVP soon. Look forward to assist you in the near future.

Tak Mungkin Kerana Sayang.....

2010-01-12T10:21:00.000+08:00

Watched Anugerah Juara Lagu 24 on TV3 on sunday nite. One of the song contested last night was Tak Mungkin Kerana Sayang by Aliyah, composed by Ajai and lyrics by a prominent song writer, Habsah Hassan ( i heard her name since i was at younger age). These are the lyrics

Setiba di persimpangan,
Langkah kita tak lagi sehaluan
Bermula di saat itu
Tidak senada irama dan lagu

Begitu hidup ini
Tiada yang abadi
Yang patah tumbuh
Yang hilang berganti

Kau telah jauh, jauh dariku
Tiada ruang di hati buatmu
Namun harusku akui
Ada ketika di minda kau menjelma kembali

Sekali segala ada
Ada rindu yang datang tiba2
Tak mungkin kerana sayang
Cuma terganggu oleh perasaan

Begitu hidup ini
Tiada yang abadi
Yang patah tumbuh
Yang hilang berganti

The song remind me of someone whom i know, whom i used to love before. We met end of 2005 as friends and going steady in 2006. After almost a year, our relationship ends. He left me a week before Syawal and it ruined my study and i failed my exam.I should not having a relationship at the early beginning as he made me a 'stopover' after his girlfriend left him for another guy. This saddened me for quite some times but it keeps me stronger. I cried the nite after he left me as i told myself that i don't want to cry because of him anymore and yes i made it.

All happened while he was in Sudan. I was so frustrated. I was so devastated. I wasn't expect all this could happen as i do everything that he wants especially listening to his frustration when the girl left him.

"I sayang u....tapi...." the words end there. Kalau dah sayang awat buat saya camtu....yer,tak? But it's okay.....everything came back to normal after few months he left and i met a guy whom is now my husband. A man that i love my entire life, whom will always be with me for better or worst. I am happy with my life now having my husband and our daughter to be with me.

~Sekali segala ada, rindu yang datang tiba2
Tak mungkin kerana sayang, cuma terganggu oleh perasaan~

XOXO

2010-01-08T15:38:00.000+08:00

I watched gossip girl sometimes while i was still awake when the show aired on 8TV. Every tuesday at 10.30pm. The show will end with a story teller will conclude on the episode. (story teller ka?...rasa cam ada nama lain ja) The words will end with 'XOXO'

Everytime i watched the series i wonder what is 'XOXO' means and i ended up google'ling the meaning of XOXO and it is in the wikipedia.....it means....

Hugs and kisses

Ooooo..........now i know laaaaa.......ermmmmmm..........it's been a while since i left all those jargons after few years i left my chatting world. I only chat with few friends since then. So no much new jargons that i know. What else that i missed?

XOXO....

hati aku jadi tak ketahwan minggu nih.....semua rasa ada.....

My Little Pumpkin

2009-12-30T16:39:00.000+08:00

Anak aku ni semakin besar semakin la melampau2 notty nya. Hampir setiap tengah malam dia bangun dan mula tunjuk perasaan sebab nak tidoq dgn mama n papa. Tak kira la time tu panas ka sejuk ka.Sebelum ni kami ingatkan dia takleh lena sebab panas. So, papa pun install la aircond kat rumah. Ye la kan...dah ada rumah sendiri boleh la pasang aircond ka, tv besar gabak ka, sumer boleh lah.(soon i will write about this). Memandangkan tuan puteri kembang semangkuk tu panas, maka papa pun pasang la aircond sepjg malam. End up mama ni berbungkus cam lepat pisang dah (i cannot tahan the coldness of the aircond). Akan tetapi, keadaan hanya berubah sementara jer. Tgh mlm buta dia akan bangun pastu campak soother ke bawah pastu mula la melalak mengada2 nak suh org amik. Padahal katil dia dgn katil papa n mama x sampai pun setengah meter jauhnya. So mama pun kesian n angkat dia tido sekatil kat tengah2. Last2 dua2 beranak 'konker' katil tu n mama tidoq sikit ja kat tepi...uhuk....uhuk.....

Other than that, dia tersangat la sibuk nak mencekau glasses mama n papa. Sapa2 yg mengadap muka dia maka org tu punya glasses jadik mangsa. Dia akan tarik terus glasses tu dan sibuk plak la nak pakai kat mata dia....sabaq satno sayang.....later u'll be like both of us. Ada mata extra.

Masa umur 6 bulan dulu, dia takmo makan solid langsung sampai la umur dia 12 bulan September yg lepas. Baru la nak makan. Dah tu sumer apa yg blh di makan dia nak belasah. Mama pun dengan senang hati bangun pagi2 masa bekal. Segala maknikam resipi mama try. Pasta la, minestrone la,mashed potato n pumpkin la, But most of the time misti la banyak sayur dan kureng daging/ayam. So far seafood tak penah la lagi mama try. Luckily dia tak suka processed food. Dia prefer cooked food. Sungguh demand ini budak. Dan tersangat la tak suka makanan masam termasuk la orange, scott's emulsion orange flavour n vit c. Sungguh la susah nak paksa dia mkn scott's.

2 hari lepas dah start mendaki 2 anak tangga rumah tok mama kat s alam. Masa tu mama tgh tunggu aunty wan pi miting kat skolah. Hadoi laaaaaaaaaa.........kepeningan mama nihhh.......ada dak sapa2 nak tolong babysit anak mama yg sorg ni tah....mama n pi holiday ngn papa la.... :D...hantaq kat tok la...bley? ;))

Benda yg paling dia suka adalah ayer...kalo mandi dalam besen tu habih la basah 1 dunia. (I still bathe her in the basin...for safety reason). Bila mama nk bwk pi swimming tah la.....

That's all for now....sebenaqnya nak tunjuk pic dia yg skit punya tahan muka masa kitaorg trykan dia sunglasses comel kat carrefour 2 minggu lepas. Thinking of buying 1 for her...kalo dak dok kaco glasses mama n papa....hancoq spek baru mama plak satgi. :D

Yg ni x best la mama....

Haaaaa......yg ni best....retro skit....tapi x muat tang idung laaaaa.....

Pic courtesy of Abg Jay

Dream

2009-12-29T17:03:00.001+08:00

I had few series of dream 2 weeks ago. One night i had a dream that i am pregnant and i can see my tummy growing bigger and bigger. The other night i while i was sleeping, i was dreaming i went to shop for babies items. Bought a moses basket, babycot, nappy etc222. After 2 days i was dreaming that i am heavily pregnant during my niece's wedding. Aiyyakkkkkkkk..........my niece is getting married on Jan 1st 2011. How arrr????

I've been thinking whether we, not we, whether i am ready for a second baby. As my little pumpkin is getting naughtier day by day, i feel like i need another year of break before having another one. Let me rest for a while ya, Pa!

But the most important thing is i need to go for a treatment before having another one to avoid pre term labour again. I can't afford to go through all this for another time.

Deep in my heart, i can't wait to have another baby again. To see him/her grows in my tummy amd to feel what my friend call 'montot sebesar mangkuk tandas' and to feel everything all over again. I miss the time when my little pumpkin sleep on my chest everynite before i put her on her bed, i miss the time when i put her in my sling and cling her around and this time i want to breastfeed my baby until he/she reaches 2 years of age. Getting pregnant and having a baby is the most wonderful thing i've ever had in my life.( I should not tell this to my hubby as he is definately ready at any time :D)

Gambar hiasan....aku xtau mana aku cilok pic nih

~Kadang2 kita asik melihat dan mempertikaikan kelemahan org lain sedangkan kelemahan sendiri dilindung2. Seeloknya pelihara diri dan keluarga sendiri kerana kita masih kekurangan. Tiada yang lebih.Jangan asyik menghitung kelemahan orang lain kerana kelemahan diri sendiri tidak terhitung.~

Nihon-go

2009-11-13T10:09:00.006+08:00

I started to know about Japan since i was a little girl. Couldn't recall when was it but i think maybe it was 20+ years back. I knew it through my beloved uncle. He did his first degree till his PHD abroad and later when he came back he became a lecturer in USM, Penang. Since then, I always told people that i wanted to be like Pak Ngah, studied abroad, being a Professor at a very young age....yada...yada....yada.....

Later when i was 16, in November 1995 i was chosen to join a student exchange programme between the Ministry of Education and Hyogo Education Board. I was so excited to be in Japan and it was autumn that time. Since then, i started to learn Nihon-go but it was just a "main-main". I was not so serious until i did my bachelor degree and did my Japanese language for my third language class. My result was quite okay that time with 2 B+ and 1 A for 3 semester course.

After that i forgot almost everything until 2 weeks ago when one of my colleague attend Nihon-go class. I asked him to get the same book and started to learn the hiragana again. I talk to my princess in Nihon-go everyday to get her to know other language besides Malay,English and Arabic (her papa taught her few arabic words). She seems understands those words. The few words are :

Ohayo
Konniciwa
Abunai
Miruku o nomimasu
Asa gohan o tabemasu
Daijobu
Teribi
Otosan
Okasan

We also do the simple counting one to 10. Luckily my husband did not object for what i've been doing to our little princess. It is good for her to explore new things in her life. I wish i could do some flashcards for her so that both of us can learn Nihon-go.

Until today, i can write 15 characters in Hiragana. I know that is not much but at least i started to learn something as perhaps 1 days i could get a scholarship to do my MBA in Japan. Who knows.......my wish could come true. As my friend always told me......."Kalau takdak angan2, takkan jadi KLCC tu"

My hiragana.....it is not as good as grade 1 kids but seems ok la i think....drp xtau langsung kan....

Good News....sad ending

2009-11-11T16:52:00.003+08:00

Met my former boss who is now heading one of the co in Motor wing few weeks ago. I was told by someone that he needs an assistant. To me it is one in a life time opportunity and i am ready to grab and work with him.

After the short conversation, he called me a week after to offer me the post and last week spoke to HR head of the co. I think it is about time for me to explore new things within the same group but in another division.

Being the smallest team in the department, only 5 of us in the funding team make us very close to each other. My mind told me that i should accept the offer from my former boss but part of my heart wants me to be here with this small tiny team. After having some words with my dear husband, i decided to move on and join the former boss.

Unfortunately, there was a very serious thing happened last week which one of the senior in the team had to leave for another department. It was chaotic as we are shorthanded and my boss was not in a good condition. She was so sad and panic since past 2 weeks as the senior person is leaving the team and at the moment we won't be able to get a replacement.

On the other hand, me who wants to leave had to retract my decision as if i left at the same time, our team will be 'patah kaki'. I am so sad that i had to turn down the offer which i've been waiting for since he left the department to Motor division but maybe it is not my 'rezeki' to work with him.

Still thinking how should i tell him about this.................me is so stress now....aduiiiiiiii!!!!!!!!!!!

Issues @ Taska/Skul/Nursery/Daycare

2009-10-29T16:22:00.005+08:00

We send our Safiyyah to a daycare provided by my company. To be specific, Taska Sime Darby. Few weeks ago, 1 parent emailed to all the parents in the mailing list about his son has been bullied by other tods in the daycare. The boy age 1 yr+. There was a few bitten n scracthes cases in the daycare. Almaklum la....budak2 baya tu yg tgh membesar dan tgh nk tumbuh gigi.

So, few mothers reply to that email including me. To me, no such thing a bully case at their age. Normal la kan to those kids. It is part and parcel of life as long as they are not having serious injury (no fracture, internal injury etc2222.....)

I told them that i am so thankful to have them to take care of my daughter. I admit that sometimes they lack of few minor things (lambat tukar nappy ended up the baby had nappy rash) To me, i just ignore the simple thing. If the nappy rash occur, i will ask them to put the medicated cream on n the problem settled. After that the story ends there. I think the manager has resolved the matter with the specific parents.

Last week, someone has told me that my email has been publicly published in a blog. I thought that the blog was written by a mother whose her baby is sent there. Unfortunately i found out that she has no longer sent her baby there and i don't even know her as when i sent my little pumpkin there, the baby was not in the taska. So, why bother? who are you to quote my email in your blog? So i called her and ask her favour to remove my email from her blog. She told me that she is not satisfy with the Taska's personnel. To me, it was her problem with the taska. Me takmo masuk campur. Kalo blh setel elok2. This is not appropriate when u simply quoted someone's email in your blog without the person's permission, without her/his knowledge n without his/her consent. (Kalo hangpa sure hangpa bengang gak)

After that so called 'conversation', she removed my email and the whole content of the posting. And added a new posting sounded so 'bengang' at me. After that bengang posting, another 'bengang' posting specially dedicated to me. Siap mendoakan kalo2 anak aku di timpa musibah kt taska, her words sounded like nak tepuk tgn padan muka kt aku la....

My conversation with her begin....

Me : Hi XXX, I am CheYah.....just want to know if the mummynbaby blog is yours?

Her : Yes, the blog is mine. y?

Me : I just found out that u quoted my email in ur blog. So sorry, but i dont feel comfortable about it. Can u remove my email from the posting?

Her : No. Your email is not there. It's already deleted

Me : The one that you delete was my email address but my name and the whole content of the email is there. Sejibik sejiban email i u copy. How can u said my email is not there (DIA NIH PAHAM KER DAK APA AKU CKP ARR?)

Her : Ok2....if you said so, i will delete that. I delete the whole entry.

Me : U quoted my email in ur blog without my consent, without my knowledge n without my permission makes me uncomfortable. I don't know what had happened between u n the taska as when i send my baby there, u already stop sending ur baby to the taska. So what's ur problem? I also have a blog but i don't simply quoted other peoples' words in my blog without their consent. N besides my contact is there. Why don't u call n inform me 1st?

Her : U know...they never say sorry for what had happened.....my baby felt sick yada....yada.....yada

Me : That is ur problem with the taska. Ur free to write whatever u want to but do not involves me in this. The email which i sent is only meant for internal discussion among the parents. Not to be circulated to outsiders. Besides i am using official email, not my personal. So before i made an official report to the authority, i think it is better for me to talk to u personally and if the email is still there, i will make the official report.

Her : Ok2...i dah delete dah the posting.
Me : If u tak puas hati, y don't u talk to the taska? or make a complaint?

Her : Susah la....the manager is ex-JKM

Me : Apa plak susahnya...u have the right

Her : I made a complaint before, tapi ya la kan...agaknya i x pandai ckp kot

Me : U write a good blog (yes, i admit that she has a very beautiful blog) why don't you write an official report? Make a police report n a written report to the JKM. Let them investigate

Her : Tak guna la buat report pun. Takpa la....

Me : So XXX, as i want my email to be removed from your blog, thanks for your favor for doing so.

I wonder why she interprate my simple english differ that what i meant...i told her that i don't want to know the problem as she can solve with the taska on her own. Kalo tak puas hati jugak, she should make a report. If i am in her shoes, dah sah2 menda nih dh smpi ke menteri n silap2 masuk TV. Use your right. Apa nak takut kalo kita di pihak yg benar. Takat kutuk2 dlm blog tak jadi apa2 n besides the reader may have the wrong impression n mula la mak2 fobia nak hantar anak pi daycare.

To that mother......

I know how hard time you have while your baby was sick. I had more than that since a second my baby was born. I saw her dying, i saw her heart beat stop, i saw her motionless asking me to be with her, i saw her entire body with wires, i saw her being intubated, i saw her nose bleed due to anemia n blood transfusion, i saw her weight dropped day by day. I was afraid that she may blind, i was afraid that she may suffer with internal injury, i was afraid that she had brain damaged.

You should be thankful that you know she is healthy while she was born. I can only pray for her safety the moment she was out from my tummy. I can only touch n see her after 48 hours i gave birth to her. I only managed to hold n kiss her after 44 days she was brought to this world.

You should be thankful that she's gonna live forever while i was giving up to god that i am ready to let her go as i can't bear to see her condition worsened.

You should be thankful that you can breastfeed her as fast as 5 seconds when she was out from your tummy while i only managed to breastfeed her after 55 days she was born.

You should be thankful that you may not need to worry about her at all as she was with you the minute she was born while i was praying and crying every second while she was away from me for 60 days.

Your suffer was only 30% than i've ever had. So please don't misjudged me and don't pray for any incidents that may injure my baby as she had enough while she was born 13 months ago. I never do such thing to you but just asking ur favour to remove my email quoted in your blog.

So please, stop hoping and praying such thing for me as i never had that in my mind for your baby. I had more than what u had with the eczema on your baby so don't say that i don't feel it!!!

Raya....

2009-10-24T01:42:00.008+08:00

We had a very good raya eventhough had to travel back to KL earlier just to attend wedding in Jengka which only took half a day merely 7 hours including travelling time....sighhhhh.......what a wasting......hati mama yg memberontak dan membengkak dek kerana wedding nih.....tp terpaksa la berkorban for the other half......(pa...u owe me this time, okkehhhhh!!!!!)

Here some pics of our little pumpkin with her tok,nyang,angah n the rest of our family...malas dh nk citer pjg2...lgpun syawal dh habih.......(biziz punya pasai xdan nk uplod pic....) soooo...enjoyyyyy.......

Bergaya di pagi raya

3 of us

Senyum sejemput

With tok n nyang

Tak sukaaaaaa.............angah kaco

Cucu toklang.....(she is the only baby whom my uncle carry n cuddles his entire life)

Tatak (kakak) dura n uda

The ZARS with the juniors

Anak Papa

With tok n cousin

Mama is busy.........

2009-10-15T12:29:00.003+08:00

I've been busy at work assisting my team to do a very big project which we called it project 'G'. So yesterday we had a signing ceremony on this big project.

Here are some news on the local newspaper. Pic will be posted soon as mama is so tired. I need a very good holiday.....mana mau pigi daa?? X pi holiday tp pi spa pon ok gaks :D

From Berita Harian (written by a friend of mine....tq Abg Ayam... ;)) )

Sime Darby terbit sekuriti Islam RM4.5b

Oleh Kamarulzaidi Kamis
kamarulzaidi@bharian.com.my

SIME Darby Bhd semalam memeterai perjanjian bagi menerbitkan sekuriti Islam bernilai RM4.5 bilion bagi membiayai aktiviti pengambilalihan, perbelanjaan modal dan keperluan modal kerjanya.

Konglomerat itu melantik Maybank Investment Bank Bhd sebagai penasihat utama, pengatur induk dan pengurus bersama terbitan itu yang membabitkan Program Nota Islam Bertempoh Sederhana (IMTN) berjumlah sehingga RM4.5 bilion dan Program Kertas Komersial Islam(ICP)/IMTN berjumlah sehingga RM500 juta dengan had terkumpul bagi kedua-dua terbitan itu adalah sebanyak RM4.5 bilion.

Majlis memeterai perjanjian bagi terbitan itu disempurnakan di Kuala Lumpur semalam.

Pada majlis itu Sime Darby diwakili Presiden dan Ketua Eksekutifnya, Datuk Seri Zubir Murshid dan Ketua Pegawai Kewangannya, Tong Poh Kew, manakala kumpulan Maybank diwakili Presiden dan Ketua Eksekutif Kumpulan Maybank, Datuk Seri Abdul Wahid Omar serta Pengarah Urusan dan Ketua Pasaran Hutang Maybank Investment, John Chong.

Hadir sama pengurus bersama lain terbitan itu iaitu CIMB Bhd yang diwakili Timbalan Ketua Eksekutifnya, Lee Kok Wan; Pubic Bank Bhd oleh Pengarah Urusannya, Tan Sri Teh Ah Lek dan Ketua Eksekutif Public Investment Bank Bhd, Teoh Cheng Soon.

Abdul Wahid dalam kenyataan yang dikeluarkan Maybank berkata, kumpulan perbankan itu berbesar hati diberi kepercayaan mengu-ruskan terbitan itu dan membantu dalam memenuhi keperluan pembiayaan jangka sederhana dan panjang Sime Darby.

“Kekukuhan penarafan AAA yang diberikan kepada program terbitan hutang Islam itu menggambarkan kedudukan Sime Darby sebagai konglomerat peneraju dan syarikat perladangan terbesar global yang tersenarai di pasaran saham.

“Kami juga yakin program itu akan menyuntik modal ke dalam pasaran modal tempatan dan meningkatkan ia sejajar dengan inisiatif kerajaan sebagai pusat kewangan Islam terkemuka global menerusi Pusat Kewangan Islam Antarabangsa Malaysia (MIFC),” katanya.

Abdul Wahid juga yakin bahawa pelabur akan mendapati nota yang diterbitkan di bawah program hutang Islam itu adalah pelaburan bernilai bagi portfolio dan strategi pelaburan mereka.

“Program terbitan Islam itu disusun berasaskan prinsip Musyarakah yang diterima secara meluas dan popular di kalangan peserta pasaran modal tempatan dan global,” katanya.

From The Star

Thursday October 15, 2009

Lead managers sign pact for RM4.5b Islamic programmes

KUALA LUMPUR: Maybank Investment Bank Bhd, the lead arranger for Sime Darby Bhd’s Islamic debt issues that amounted to RM4.5bil, announced yesterday the signing of the programmes with joint lead managers CIMB Group and Public Investment Bank Bhd.

The programme was approved by the Securities Commission on Sept 24.

“The Islamic programme is structured based on the widely accepted Islamic finance principle of Musyarakah, which is very popular with local and international capital market players,” Maybank president and chief executive officer Datuk Seri Abdul Wahid Omar said in the statement.

He said the strength of the AAA-rated Islamic programmes reflect Sime Darby’s position as a leading conglomerate and the world’s largest listed oil palm plantation group.

Datuk Seri Abdul Wahid Omar (left) exchanging documents with Sime Darby president and group chief executive Datuk Seri Ahmad Zubir Murshid. – Maybank pic

He expressed confidence that investors would find the notes issued under the Islamic programmes a “premier investment and a valuable contribution to their bond portfolio and investment strategy.”

Proceeds from the exercise would be utilised to finance Sime Darby’s acquisitions and capital expenditure, working capital, as well as to refinance certain debts obligations.

Kawan, sahabat dan teman

2009-10-08T14:59:00.004+08:00

Dah lama aku nak menulis tentang tajuk ni tapi masanya belum tiba. Dan mungkin juga kerana aku masih belum ada kekuatan untuk menulis tentang ini.

Aku ada seorang kawan dan bagi aku dia masih seorang kawan....macam dulu....bezanya kami pernah ada perbalahan setahun yang lalu. Punca awalnya kerana aku berselindung akan sesuatu. Bagi aku, bukan salah aku kerana berahsia. Aku ingin menjaga hati kawan tersebut. Akan tetapi sikap berahsia aku ketika itu disalah ertikan hingga aku dituduh membelakangkan kawan. Mana mungkin aku bercerita dengannya ketika itu kerana aku tahu dia seorang yang sensitif. Terlalu sensitif. Untuk mengelakkan berlakunya kes rajuk yang tak sudah, elok saja aku berdiam diri. Tapi lain pula jadinya. Makin teruk rajuknya hinggakan pada ketika itu aku ditimpa musibah sedikit pun tidak di ambil peduli. Kawankah itu?

Akhirnya kami berkonfrantasi selepas beberapa bulan hal itu berlaku. Kedua-duanya tidak mahu mengakui kesalahan diri. Kata suamiku, aku terlalu menurut hati. Kawan tetap kawan walaupun baik atau buruk.

Baru-baru ini aku terdengar dia ada perancangan yang besar. Tidak ku bertanya kerana mungkin itu terlalu peribadi baginya hinggakan tidak mahu berkongsi dengan aku padahal kisah itu ditatapi semua.Aku tunggu dia berbicara dahulu sebelum aku bertanya. Bagiku, dia ada alasan sendiri tidak mahu bercerita pada kawan yang seorang ini. Itu aku hormati. Tak mengapa, nanti sampai masanya dia akan bercerita juga. Aku menanti dan masih menanti saat itu. Tidak susah untuk memahami dan menghormati pendirian seorang kawan. Beranggapan baik dengan tindakannya sudah memadai. Tapi kenapa dia tidak boleh beranggapan seperti itu padaku dahulu? Salah aku kah itu?

Kalau diikutkan hati panasku, tak ingin aku ada kawan sepertinya lagi. Tapi akal warasku memujuk....dia masih seorang kawan, seorang teman dan seorang sahabatku...hormati apa jua tindakannya dan terima dia seadanya.....

~ ada kala kesilapan seseorang tercipta tanpa disedari, begitu juga ada kala kita memaafkan kesalahan orang pun tanpa kita sedari juga~ (sepi pun datang....oct 2009)

12 Ramadhan = 12 Months

2009-09-05T05:54:00.006+08:00

My little sweet pie is 12 months on 12 Ramadhan. Yes! she was born premature weighing 1.06kg on 12 Ramadhan last year at 11.05 friday morning. She is now 10.5kg........and mama rasa lengan ni dh naik muscle....weightlifting hari2....:D

Alhamdulillah...thank you Allah for giving me this wonderful experience. She hardly fell sick after being discharged from the NICU 10 months ago. I think maybe Allah has stop all painful that she had gone through throughout the 2 months in the NICU (apnea, anemia...and the list goes). Since past 12 months she only had twice of high fever. 1 in mid may when she started to mix up with her 'skool' frends and 1 on wednesday which fall on her 1st birthday.

As she is premature, she develops so well. Her interactions with people (her mama, papa and of course her tok nyang) are quite good. She hardly smile to strangers (like me). She would love to taste everything which she can grab. Last week when meeting the paeds in Selayang he was so impressed with her development. Habih brg2 doc kena kaco atas meja. Ganaz betoi anak mama nih.

She is still in a process taking solids. She refused the cereal bought on the shelf. She would only take mashed potatoes and apple sauce which cooked by mama and mushroom soup too....(sungguh demand ini budak). And she loves kurma/dates.

She wants to be hugged before she sleeps (kat skool tak plak macam tu. Independent jerk).

We had a pre-birthday celebration last Sunday at my mom's house. (Pic will upload later)

So enjoy some latest pic of her. This was taken by Kak Hani when i met her in KL last month.

Muka baru mangkit tidoq

Menten....

Menten lagik....

Mula dah pegang mama sambil posing...

Kening dah berkerut2........

Daaaaaannnnnnnnn............truih sebek...hahahaha

Huduh laaaaa..........mama rasa mcm da pic mama kecik2 dolu ngn tok camni...nanti nak godek2 album lama :D

Pergi Tak Kembali

2009-08-14T09:09:00.003+08:00

Setiap insan pasti merasa
Saat perpisahan terakhir
Dunia yang fana akan ditinggalkan
Hanya amalan yang akan dibawa

Terdengar sayup surah dibaca
Sayunya alunan suara
Cemas di dada lemah tak bermaya
Terbuka hijab di depan mata

Selamat tinggal pada semua
Berpisah kita selamanya
Kita tak sama nasib di sana
Baiklah atau sebaliknya

Amalan dan taqwa jadi bekalan
Sejahtera, bahagia pulang...kesana

Sekujur badan berselimut putih
Rebah bersemadi sendiri
Mengharap kasih anak dan isteri
Apa mungkin pahala dikirim

Terbaring sempit seluas pusara
Soal bicara terus bermula
Sesal dan insaf tak berguna lagi
Hancurlah jasad dimamah bumi

Berpisah sudah segalanya
Yang tinggal hanyalah kanangan
Diiringi doa dan air mata
Yang pergi takkan ke mbali lagi

Lagu ini pertama kali ku dengar sekitar penghujung 90-an. Ketika itu aku masih belajar di Shah Alam. It was a great song. I really enjoyed listening to it. Mengingatkan tentang mati, tentang amalan, tentang dosa, tentang doaku sebagai anak kepada arwah abah. It reminds me everything while listening to the song. Bila masaku akan tiba? Bagaimana aku mati? Siapa yang akan berada sisiku saat kematianku? Siapa yang akan mendoakan ku nanti? Semuanya menjadi persoalan yang akhirnya akan menyebabkan aku mengalirkan air mata.

Andai aku diberi peluang, aku tidak mahu mati sekarang kerana dosaku masih belum terampun.

Ustaz Asri yang aku kenali hanya pada luaran cukup istimewa kurasakan. Alunan suara yg merdu membuatkan hati tersentuh dan terus insaf dengan kekurangan diri yang ada. Hilangnya dia dari dunia yang fana ini menjadikan seolah-olah sepi dunia dari alunan merdu suaranya yang mengajak kita ke arah kebaikan.

Hati ini amat tersentuh. Dialah artis pertama yang kutangisi kehilangan.Bagiku, dia bukan artis. Dia lebih kepada seorang ustaz yang mengajak kita sentiasa mengingati Allah.

Buat Puan Haliza dan anak2....takziah kuucapkan. Semoga rohnya ditempatkan disyurga bersama-sama dengan Rasulullah dan sahabat2nya. Tabahlah ummi dan anak2 mengharungi cabaran dan dugaan hidup tanpa suami dan abi tersayang. .....Al-Fathihah....

Petikan dari blog Ustaz Asri Ibrahim........

"Aku adalah pengejar syurga akhirat, bagiku dunia ini adalah tempat mempersiapkan segala sesuatu untuk meraih syurga akhirat; aku yakin bahawa syurga akhirat tidak akan pernah dapat aku raih kecuali aku boleh menikmati syurga dunia terlebih dahulu. Maka rumah dan keluargaku adalah syurga dunia paling indah buatku. Tempat kerja syurga dunia harianku. Tetangga, masyarakat,dan bangsa adalah syurga duniaku yang lebih luas. Ke manapun dan sampai bila-bila pun syurgaku selalu bersamaku."

I don't wanna miss a thing!

2009-08-08T23:39:00.004+08:00

I miss!!! I miss to write something here. To share my views, my feelings, my thought here with some few GOOD FRIENDS....YES! YOU, YOU AND YOU are my GOOD FRIENDS. NOT YOU and YOU which i don't think i need to describe here. (YOU KNOW WHO YOU ARE!)

However, due to my busy schedule, my works, my family and our new house makes me unable to write a single word here.

Will be back soon with a very looooooonnnnnggggg....... lists of views, feelings and thoughts to share with.

Love Note :

1. To my good friend INA, be strong as we also can't wait for you to reunite with your love ones, Maisara and daddy.

2. To my another good friend TINI, our prayers are with you. hopefully the IUI is successful

1st Zoo Negara Visit

2009-07-25T15:11:00.005+08:00

Last month Mama n her ZARS geng had a planning for a get together. It was like after 2-3 years all of them never met. Normally Mama goes for a date with Aunty Seri n Aunty Tini. It was merely 3 years they haven't meet Aunty Ina and a year meeting Aunty Edda.

They were keep emailing each other for 2 weeks and talking about this trip almost everyday. They were so excited compared to the kids (we just follow, anyway :D)

On the day, Mama cooked sambal tumis udang and bought Choc Walnut cake for Aunty Seri's birthday. Aunty Ina brought drinks and 'kudap-kudapan', Aunty Tini cooked nasik lemak, Aunty Seri bring dessert and Aunty Edda with her fried chicken.

Everybody had brunch at one of the air-conditioned 'tent'. Unfortunately, Mama forgot her plates and Aunty Ina had left the cups at home. Aiyyyaaaaaaaaa.............everybody need to eat using the 'tudung tepawer' and few other food containers and drink using feeding bottles cup. Adessssss...........lawak betoi laaaaaaa...........planning skit punya baguih tapi lupo plak nak bwk menda plg penting dlm dunia.

Here's some pics taken from Aunty Tini's n Uncle Zul's camera and they are doing photography services too.......so if u want affordable photographer with good pics.....hurry n grab them :))

So Aunties...........where's next? ;))

Let's go Mama....i'm ready for the adventure ;)

Alamak....seems Mama needs to get a bigger buggy now!

With Aunty Tini, Aunty Seri, Uncle Malik n Kakak Sarah

Jalan 5 menet sumer sudah duduk....tak fit langsung...hahahaha...

Wait Uncle!!!! i'm not ready laaaaa.........

Sudah kenyang....so blh jalan.... :D

Kedai CheYah

2009-07-12T14:40:00.004+08:00

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My Darling Princess

2009-07-01T05:50:00.008+08:00

Just for Aunty Umi who can't wait to see lil Humaira Safiyyah in person.......(ekceli kan Aunty...mama lost her camera...couldn't take pics anymore....huhuhuhu)

Ternganga tgk flash

Mood baik nak pi jenjalan

Adehhh........lapaq plak aih...bila mama nk bg susu tah

Aiiiyaaaaaa........terpenyet........

Baru mangkit tidoq.....skit punya lawa mama bg pakai baju last2 lena dr kui 12 smpi 3.30

Contraception

2009-06-28T17:46:00.003+08:00

Due to my previous pregnancy complication, i was adviced by the obgyn to not to conceive within 2 years after i gave birth to my baby.

At first, i asked a few frends about the contraceptive and there few answers are here. After a false alarm trigger (my menses were 2 months late early this year) i met a gynae in KMC. She advised me to take Yasmin, an oral contraceptive. Took those pills for 2 months, unfortunately doesn't suits me. I can easily had headache, extreme pain during menses and mood 'swing' due to the hormones pills.

I stop for about 2 months and end of May i went to meet an obgyn in Tawakal. After listening to my very loooooooongggggggg..............story of my medical history, he advised me to take pills similar to implanon daily non stop.

Why implanon type of pills? He told me that Yasmin is the lowest dosage in Oral contraception family, if i am unable to suit Yasmin, definately i cannot 'tahan' with other type/brand of oral contraception.

IUD is not suitable for me as i can easily infected as per his diagnose with my PPROM during my pregnancy.

So both is no-no for me.

I was prescribed with Noriday, an oral type implanon. Been taking it for merely 1 month now and i seems ok with this but my menses will be differ than before. I may or may not have menstruation. As implanon is to maintain ovulation, i may not get pregnant during my consumption of these pills, however there are few cases that may caused pregnancy during the consumption of the pills.

Hope everything will be fine and i am ready for another pregnancy when my little princess reached 2 years of age.

Still here..........

2009-06-20T09:19:00.004+08:00

Just realized that it's been a month since i wrote my few words here. Since May 15th i've been very busy at work and home. Lots of things to do here and there and i ended up being so tired end of every day.

I have thousands of words to write here hence need some peaceful time and mind to write. Will be back soon!!!!!!!!

# :Macam la ada org nk baca blog aku nih :D.........yg menyibuk dan dok mengata kat aku memang ramai......macam makcik gemok dan makcik kurus tuuuuuuuu...............

1st week @ day care

2009-05-23T23:10:00.002+08:00

Aduiii.......lamanya tak apdet blog. Takdan la sejak keja nih. Kat ofis xleh suka suki nak online sbb kena login id segala....dah la tgh appraisal nih...mau kena downgrade satgi :D

Immediately mama sent lil Humaira Safiyyah in her day care (tok panggil sekolah), i went up to 21st floor, to my department just for a standby in case if any complications.....ngeeee......i wa as so nervous for the first few hours. Sempat la mana nak online sat, chat few words with colleague etc and at 12 sharp switched the notebook off and ready to fetch her. Upon arrival, i see her on her tummy position doing her own thing. Kesian anak mama takdak orang layan. That was my first thought. Later i brought her back home. Adussss.....lepas seksaan hari ni.

2nd day i fetch her @ 1.00pm immediately after having lunch with few friends. the caretaker said she did quite well. not so demanding but only cry for milk. Baiknya anak mama nih....cayang la mama.....

3rd day mama fetch her quite late, around 4pm after had such a wonderful makan2 with aunty tini n aunty seri. Depa 2 cuti for wesak day. Mama ended with stomache ache after had ayam penyet. Agaknya pedas sgt kot....sejak lps beranak ni mama punya perut quite sensitive to spicy food la

Her 1st day away from Mama

2009-05-06T10:35:00.002+08:00

This morning i sent my lil Humaira Safiyyah to child care centre. Located at 1st floor, the same building at my work place. It is provided by the employer to their staffs. It's kinda orietation for her to get used with the taska (orientation for mama actually) as my very long leave will end next week and will be back to work on May 15th.

We arrived around 8.10am and i left the centre at 8.30. This is the 1st time i left her with a childminder. Normally i left her with my mother not more than 3 hours. Dan-dan tu jugak la mama ni sebak sangat rasanya. Sedih sgt sebab terpaksa berpisah dgn anak. Cemana la anak dara aku yang seorang itu hari ni. I hope she's doing well.

Will fetch her at 12.30 today........mama sedey nihhhhh.....kepala asik dok ingat dia ja

Contraception

2009-04-16T22:34:00.002+08:00

Open for discussion...to all mothers...what say you on this? What would you prefer? Pills, IUD, or implan?

I will do some research and will write on my blog and will publish your comment here.

Don't Touch My Baby!

2009-04-16T21:29:00.002+08:00

Giving birth to a preemies made me extra cautious on everything especially the hygienic part. My husband and i will ensure that our hands are properly washed before touching our baby, her feeding bottles as well as her milk. Besides, most of the thing must be very clean to avoid any infections on our baby.

During her first few months, i refused to let other peoples touching her to maintain the level of hygiene. No touching, no kissing etc. We only allow both grandmas visiting us touching her but not to kiss her. How cruel we were that time. But it is for her own good as she is highly infected. Until now, we keep the same practise which we won't simply let other peoples touching her especially peoples who had running nose, fever and cough (kesian Aunty Seri, 1st time jumpa Humaira takleh pegang dia...mujoq aunty paham)

Yesterday, we sent a frend of my niece to the Alor Star airport and later i drove the car to Tesco Mergong, Kedah. I love to do shopping there as the diaper is chepaer than in Perlis. So do the formula. While walking aisle by aisle, there was a lady staff there passed by us and she asked me how old my baby is and i told her 6 mths (lupa daaaa.........anakku sudah 7 bulan kemarin) and she suddenly trying to touch my baby's cheek. Immediately i told her, "do not touch my baby, please! you must be very hygiene to touch her!". Entah tangan dia dari mana2 nak mai pegang anak aku. She immediately walked off then. Mesti dia kata aku sombong. Tapi lantak pi la....janji anak aku sihat.

The other reason i refused to allow peoples touching her cheek is because she loves to put her fingers (more than 1 finger ya aunty2....) to her mouth and later all the saliva will running out from her mouth to her cheek and her chest....belemoih la anak daraku nan seorang inin.....so, if other peoples touch her cheek, i am afraid that the bacteria will infected her saliva and later to her mouth,her lung etc. Sungguh cengeng aku ini (meminjam ayat kak anne)

To mothers who are having infants, please be 'kedekut' to others. Don't simply let peoples touching or kissing your baby to avoid any unnecessary incident happend to your baby. Besides, if you or your family had running nose, fever or cough please use face mask while handling the baby. There was a case in NICU where a healthy baby girl was born and 1 month later 80% of her lung damaged due to infections of running nose & cough of her elder sibling as well as her father. She lives will a life support machine and i don't know what happened to her as when my baby was discharged, she is still on life support machine.

Anakku Dah Besar

2009-04-11T22:18:00.002+08:00

My baby now is 6 months old. There's lot of development on her since her 1st day of life. She smiles, she speaks in her own words, she cries, she shouts, she moves left n right, moves her head upwards. She is also being able to sit with aided and wants to sit up straight no sandaq2. when i put her in the walker, she can move left and right and back but yet to move forward.As she reaches 6 months, she has another appointment with the paeds in Hospital Selayang for her development and progress. As we are staying with my mom at the moment, my husband and i decided that both me and my baby travel by air instead of by land which only takes 50 minutes to reach KL.

We landed in KLIA on tuesday afternoon at 12.00 noon. Merely 3 hours delay due to bad wheather. Papa was waiting since 9.00am at the airport and he hates waiting (masa dok deting dolu2 pon asik kena tembak ja mama nih sebab timing lari..hehehehe). Lil Humaira Safiyyah's check up at Hospital Selayang on the day after.

At the clinic she is weight and her heigth/length was noted. She is now 8.28kg and 61cm long. Dah besaq la anak mama nih. As most of her clothes are thight, we need to get new clothes for her and yesterday nite we went to do some shopping at the Reject Shop One Utama. I dont really go for local brand such as Anakku, Tollyjoy etc as the sizes are quite smaller than it should be and the material quality is not so good compared to the one from Reject Shop (bukan la reject sgt pon. Paling2 terlebih benang ka, just some minor error yg kita tak noticed) and the most important thing is cheaper than local brand.

Memandangkan anakku yang cepat membesar ini, teringin plak aku nak jait baju dia sendiri, her soft toys..bestnyaaaaaa.......harap2 impian menjadi kenyataan...

We are leaving this tuesday and Papa will be back for my bro's wedding end of the month and we will be back to KL for good. Lepas balik ni mama kena la bertungkus lumus packing barang untuk pindah. Adesssss...........pindah lagi...hopefully takyah pindah dah la pasni :D

Kabinet Baru

2009-04-09T16:41:00.002+08:00

Saya ingin bercakap tentang kabinet baru....bukan kabinet dapoq yer tuan-tuan dan puan-puan tapi Barisan Menteri Kabinet yang baru selepas Datuk Seri Najib Tun Razak menjadi Perdana Menteri Malaysia ke-6 awal bulan ini.

Sebagai Perdanan Menteri Malaysia, beliau dipertanggungjawabkan untuk mengumumkan senarai Menteri Kabinet yang baru setelah mendapat perkenan ke bawah Duli Yang Maha Mulia Seri Paduka Baginda Yang Di Pertuan Agong Sultan Mizan Zainal Abidin.

Senarai lengkap Menteri Kabinet yang baru adalah seperti berikut :

PERDANA MENTERI:

Datuk Seri Najib Razak

TIMBALAN PERDANA MENTERI:

Tan Sri Muhyiddin Yassin

MENTERI DI JABATAN PERDANA MENTERI

1. Tan Sri Dr Koh Tsu Koon (Hal Ehwal Perpaduan & Pengurusan Prestasi)

2. Datuk Seri Mohamed Nazri Abdul Aziz (Hal Ehwal Perundangan dan Parlimen)

3. Tan Sri Nor Mohamed Yakcop (Unit Perancang Ekonomi)

4. Mej-Jen (B) Datuk Jamil Khir Baharom (Hal Ehwal Agama Islam)

Timbalan-timbalan Menteri:

1. Datuk Liew Vui Keong

2. Datuk Dr Mashitah Ibrahim

3. Datuk S.K. Devamany

4. Ahmad Maslan

5. T.Murugiah

MENTERI KEWANGAN:

Datuk Seri Najib Razak

MENTERI KEWANGAN II:

DATUK AHMAD HUSNI MOHAMAD HANADZLAH

Timbalan:

1. Datuk Chor Chee Heung

2. Datuk Dr Awang Adek Hussin

MENTERI PELAJARAN:

Tan Sri Muhyiddin Yassin

Timbalan:

1. Datuk Dr Wee Ka Siong

2. Dr Mohd Puad Zarkashi

MENTERI PENGANGKUTAN:

Datuk Ong Tee Keat

Timbalan:

1. Datuk Abdul Rahim Bakri

2. Datuk Robert Lau Hoi Chew

MENTERI PERUSAHAAN, PERLADANGAN DAN KOMODITI:

Tan Sri Bernard Dompok

Timbalan:

1. Datuk Hamzah Zainudin

MENTERI DALAM NEGERI:

Datuk Seri Hishammuddin Hussein

Timbalan:

1. Datuk Wira Abu Seman Yusop

2. Jelaing anak Mersat

MENTERI PENERANGAN, KOMUNIKASI, KESENIAN DAN KEBUDAYAAN:

Datuk Seri Utama Dr Rais Yatim

Timbalan:

1. Datuk Joseph Salang Gandum

2. Senator Heng Seai Kie

MENTERI TENAGA, TEKNOLOGI HIJAU DAN AIR:

Datuk Peter Chin Fah Kui

Timbalan:

Noriah Kasnon

MENTERI KEMAJUAN LUAR BANDAR DAN WILAYAH:

Datuk Seri Shafie Apdal

Timbalan:

1. Datuk Hassan Malek

2. Datuk Joseph Entulu anak Belaun

MENTERI PENGAJIAN TINGGI:

Datuk Seri Mohd Khaled Nordin

Timbalan:

1. Datuk Dr Hou Kok Chung

2. Datuk Saifuddin Abdullah

MENTERI PERDAGANGAN ANTARABANGSA DAN INDUSTRI:

Datuk Mustapa Mohamed

Timbalan:

1. Datuk Mukhriz Mahathir

2. Datuk Jacob Dungau Sagan

MENTERI SAINS, TEKNOLOGI DAN INNOVASI:

Datuk Dr Maximus Ongkili

Timbalan:

Fadillah Yusof

MENTERI SUMBER ASLI DAN ALAM SEKITAR:

Datuk Douglas Uggah Embas

Timbalan:

Tan Sri Joseph Kurup

MENTERI PELANCONGAN:

Datuk Ng Yen Yen

Timbalan:

Datuk Seri Sulaiman Abdul Rahman Abdul Taib

MENTERI PERTANIAN DAN INDUSTRI ASAS TANI:

Datuk Noh Omar

Timbalan:

1. Datuk Johari Baharum

2. Datuk Rohani Abdul Karim

MENTERI PERTAHANAN:

Datuk Seri Dr Ahmad Zahid Hamidi

Timbalan:

Datuk Dr Abdul Latiff Ahmad

MENTERI KERJA RAYA:

Datuk Shaziman Abu Mansor

Timbalan:

Datuk Yong Khoon Seng

MENTERI KESIHATAN:

Datuk Liow Tiong Lai

Timbalan:

Datuk Rosnah Rashid Shirlin

MENTERI BELIA DAN SUKAN:

Datuk Ahmad Shabery Cheek

Timbalan:

1. Datuk Razali Ibrahim

2. Wee Jeck Seng

MENTERI SUMBER MANUSIA:

Datuk Dr S.Subramaniam

Timbalan:

Datuk Maznah Mazlan

MENTERI PERDAGANGAN DALAM NEGERI DAN HAL EHWAL PENGGUNA:

Datuk Ismail Sabri Yaakob

Timbalan:

Datuk Tan Lian Hoe

MENTERI PERUMAHAN DAN KERAJAAN TEMPATAN:

Datuk Kong Cho Ha

Timbalan:

Datuk Lajim Ukin

MENTERI PEMBANGUNAN WANITA, KELUARGA DAN MASYARAKAT:

Datuk Seri Sharizat Jalil

Timbalan:

Datin Paduka Chew Mei Fun

MENTERI LUAR:

Datuk Anifah Aman

Timbalan:

1. A.Kohilan Pillay

2. Datuk Lee Chee Leong

MENTERI WILAYAH PERSEKUTUAN:

Datuk Raja Nong Chik Raja Zainal Abidin

Timbalan:

Datuk M.Saravanan

Walaubagaimanapun, 8 menteri sebelum ini digugurkan daripada senarai kabinet terkini. Mereka adalah :

1. Menteri Dalam Negeri - Datuk Seri Syed Hamid Albar

2.Menteri Kerja Raya - Datuk Ir. Mohd. Zin Mohamad (baru setahun memegang jawatan menteri selepas pilihanraya 2008)

3. Menteri Pelancongan - Datuk Azalina Othman Said (Juga baru setahun memegang portfolio sebagai menteri pelancongan)

4. Menteri Kemajuan Luar Bandar dan Wilayah - Tan Sri Muhammad Muhd. Taib (dahulunya bekas MB Selangor)

5. Menteri Wilayah Persekutuan - Datuk Seri Zulhasnan Rafique

6. Menteri di Jabatan Perdana Menteri - Datuk Amrisham A.Aziz (Bekas Presiden & CEO Maybank)

7. Menteri Perdagangan Dalam Negeri dan Hal Ehwal Pengguna -Datuk Shahrir Abdul Samad

8.Menteri Perumahan dan Kerajaan Tempatan, Datuk Ong Ka Chuan.

Agak sedikit janggal pada barisan menteri pada kali ini kerana Ketua Pemuda Umno, Khairy Jamaluddin tidak memegang mana-mana jawatan menteri kabinet kerana selalunya, ketua wanita dan pemuda akan diberi jawatan menteri penuh atau timbalan menteri.

Kali ini 3 wakil daripada Wanita Umno memegang jawatan di dalam kabinet iaitu Datuk Shahrizat Jalil, Datuk Maznah Mazlan dan Noriah Kasno. Tahniah kepada ketiga-tiga wakil daripada sayap wanita Umno Malaysia.

Kepada semua mentei baru yang dilantik, tahniah dan selamat menjalankan tanggungjawab yang diberikan dengan penuh dedikasi,amanah dan beretika.

Tagged from Facebook

2009-03-25T21:24:00.002+08:00

My fren, Alin tagged me in the Facebook. Rasa malas nak jawab kat sana..jawab kt sini pun ok la kot...here it goes...

Here's a chance to see how well you really know your husband. Cut, paste and fill in the answers, then shoot, you know what to do. The real challenge is to send it to your husband to see how right you really are. Tag friends to complete it as well!

1. He's sitting in front of the TV, what is on the screen?
Bernama TV, ESPN & other sports channel on ASTRO

2. You're out to eat; what kind of dressing does he get on his salad?
He doesn't really take salad but normally he would have salad with thousand island dressing

3. What's one food he doesn't like?
Masak tumis air/bening/sayoq manis

4. You go out to eat and have a drink. What does he order?
Nasik.....teh o suam kurang manis/carrot susu

5. Where did he go to high school?
Al Madrasah AL Alawiyah Addiniah, Arau Perlis (me..tak suka budak skolah agama....alim la kununnnnnnn........)

6. What size shoe does he wear?
8

7. If he was to collect anything, what would it be?
Miniature of cars

8. What is his favorite type of sandwich?
Doesn't really like sandwich...i normally make him sardines/egg sandwich

9. What would this person eat every day if he could?
Nasi + Megi kari + lots of vege

10. What is his favorite cereal?
None

11. What would he never wear?
Bright color shirt

12. What is his favorite sports team?
Man U

13. Who did he vote for?
Parti Islam Se Malaysia

14. Who is his best friend?
His brother i guess (he never mentioned actually)

15. What is something you do that he wishes you wouldn't do?
Malas lipat baju :D

16. What is his heritage?
Kedah born...both sides from Kedah

17. What is his favourite colour?
Itam itu menawan

18. What is his habit?
Makan bola, tidoq bola, ROKOK!!!!!

19. What is he proud of?
Me n our baby (am i rite, Pa?)

20. Lastly, do you think he will read this?
He will curi2 read my blog when i left the notebook unattended

Pulangkan!!!!!!!!!!!!

2009-03-17T23:09:00.003+08:00

I received a phone call from my mother this afternoon at 1.00pm telling me that she lost her cash in her purse. I immediately checked my handbag and found out that my cash and digicam were missing. Adoi laaaaaaaaaa....................

To tell the truth, i only have RM300.00 in my purse which i need it this sunday to bring my daughter for her monthly check up. Besides, i need to get her a walker and half of it i need a bumbo chair for her when i returned to KL next month. Unfortunately, this culprit took all my money and only left RM1.50 for me.Celaka betoiiiiiiiii...........seringgit lima kupang nak beli roti gardenia pun x dapat laaaa.......

My digicam is one of the most precious thing i've ever had. I bought it using my bonus which i received for FYE 2007. It was Olympus 790SW. I recorded my engagement, my wedding and my precious moments with our little princess since she was born.Luckily i managed to uplod all pic of her last sunday to our laptop.Kalo tak mmg lagi mengamuk la aku.

We went to do a police report and the investigation officer told us that this maybe done by a person who knows us. Might be our relative. I think i know who the person is. (Memang aku dh buat report dah pun sapa yg aku suspect tuh.) That person only went in to my mom's room but not my room. I was so lucky as i left my wedding ring,my engagement ring and a bracelet which my mom gave to me on my 17th birthday on the table in the room. Kalo yang tu ilang gak kompom aku pi bom rumah dia.

Tapi takpa....aku akan dapat balik kamera aku tuh....ampess tolll!!!!!!!!!! Duit tu aku x halal hang amik...dah la bg mkn anak bini....silap2 hangpa pi mana2 eksiden mampuih pi anak beranak!!!!!!!

Dan Mama menangis lagi...

2009-03-16T21:37:00.002+08:00

My husband arrived on friday morning around 7.45am. He was here for 4 days and left this afternoon.

He took extra 2 days leave to spend more time with us plus attending his cousin's wedding in Kulim, Kedah. Upon arrival at the bus station, the happiest person was definately me and later when he reached home, our little Humaira Safiyyah was so extremely happy to see her papa. We can see tru how did she hug her papa that morning (anak daraku tak mudah didekati org yg dia x kenai)

Later in the afternoon we left for Alor Setar for shopping and overnite at my inlaws' place. We returned to my mom's house saturday evening.

I was so glad when he is here with us as i missed him so much. But when he left this afternoon i felt so lonely and when our little princess looking for her papa this evening made me sad. She refused to take milk, refused to be seated and even to be carry around by her tok. Later i called her papa and let him talk to her. Immediately when she hear papa's voice, she made some sounds as she is telling her papa something and when papa ask her not to cry and be good, she immediately keep quiet and 15 minutes later sleeps in my arms.

I can't stop my tears tonite and keep thinking of him again. I miss him alot. I can't afford to stay apart any longer. If our little princess miss her papa, i miss him more than she does. I can't wait to be with him again. I never had this kind of feeling, not even when we were dating before.

Pa, i miss u alot..........

Baby Sign Language & Flash Cards

2009-03-11T13:57:00.004+08:00

My little princess is 6 moths old tommorrow. Currently she is able to sit with aided. However, she seems doesn't interested in toys (maybe benda2 yg dibeli tak menarik minat dia kot). She will grip anything near her but still unable to grip any bigger items.This haunted me as other babies at her age really love soft toys. She only interested if peoples talk to her. She will definately reply back with her own language with smiles n laughter.

For preemies, it is normal for them to develop slower than normal babies but to avoid delay in her development, i decided to do something. Therefore, i begin with introducing baby sign language as well as flash cards to stimulate her.

What is baby sign language? (adapted from Babies n Sign Language)

"Baby sign language is a method in which you and your infant (or toddler) use specific handshapes and motions to convey words and meaning (quickly and easily) with each other. These exact handshapes and motions are executed typically using American Sign Language.

This special type of communication significantly reduces frustration for your darling little one.

Most babies can hear but do not yet have the physical ability to speak more than a few words, if any. Since speech is formed through the use of trained vocal chords, most babies can only form basic sounds. Communication is difficult (at first) and is usually made up of unintelligible noises and hand gestures. When frustrated, communication dissolves into crying, whining and sometimes tantrums. When Baby is frustrated, so are Mommy and Daddy.

Sometimes when you look at the familiar in a new way, great ideas are formed. Hearing babies have been signing with their Deaf parents for ages.

Two researchers looked at American Sign Language (ASL), and at a baby's form of communication, and saw compatibility. As a result of the pioneer research by the team comprised of Linda Acredolo and Susan Goodwyn, and (later years), of Joseph Garcia, Baby Sign Language was 'discovered' and developed.

Also called infant sign language, baby sign, and sign language for babies, Baby Sign Language is composed of baby hand and finger signs that indicate words, concepts, and ideas babies need and want to communicate. These are words like "hungry", "milk", "wet", "hurt", "sleepy", etc..."

I myself choose baby sign language because this will enable me to communicate with my baby as she prefer this way. Besides baby sign, i use flash cards to stimulate her. There are lots of websites that offer free downloads of flash cards to stimulate the babies' eyes and brains and i think this will benefit her as she has ROP before.

The other reason why i choose both methods because this is the most cheapest way to develop her as i can't afford expensive toys at the moment (soft toys yang berkualiti di Malaysia ni tersangat la mahalnyer yer!) I can only start buying her those toys only after i came back to work.

Bohong Sunat kot....

2009-03-07T09:35:00.002+08:00

Conversation 1 : Me on the phone

Me : Halo...klinik ibu dan anak poliklinik Arau ka?

Ans : Ya...

Me : Cik, saya nak tanya...anak saya ni prem...bersalin kt Hospital Selayang...la ni saya balik dok di Perlis sebab saya cuti. Anak saya ni baru dapat suntikan pertama masa umoq dia 2 bulan. BCG & Hep B...yang lain belum lagi. Bulih dak saya nak pi cucuk disana? La ni umoq dia dah 5 bulan.

Ans : Oooo.......lepas ni nak balik KL plak bila?

Me : Saya nak balik bulan 5. Masa tu umoq dia dh 8 bulan.

Ans : Kalo lagu tu kami nak kena tanya Kangaq dulu la sebab ubat KL ngn ubat Perlih tak sama.

Me : ????????????????? Takpa la...saya check ngn Hospital Selayang..tima kasih

Conversation 2 : Me at Kedah Medical Centre

Me : Doc, klinik kerajaan takmo trima kes my baby sebab depa kata ubat KL n Perlis tak sama. Sebab tu i nak amik immunization kt sini.

Paed : Kenapa plak tak sama? Kita kat sini pun guna vaccine yg sama mcm kementerian kesihatan jugak. Schedule pun follow kementerian kesihatan. Macam mana plak ubat tak sama?

Me : I dunno....depa saja tak mo amik out station case la kot...menyusahkan depa

Betoi ka ubat tak sama? Setau aku semua ubat untuk Klinik Kesihatan Kerajaan sama ja sebab depa centralised. Cemana bulih tak sama plak?????? KL amik ubat Singapore, Perlih amik ubat siam la kot???

Mujoq la aku n anak aku dapat medical benefit laki aku. So that kami blh guna medical card for both outpatient n hospitalisation blh la pi private hospital. Kalo orang susah cemana? mana depa nak pi? mana depa nk dapat imunisasi utk anak depa. Bodow betoi la puak2 nih....mujoq la aku ckp ngn depa on the phone n pagi tu aku xdak mood sgt nk byk soal jawab. Kalo gamaknya aku pi Poliklinik Arau tuh mau bergegaq 1 Arau aku rasa....nak muhong pun ngn aku...kot hangpa nak muhong siam kok klang yg tak tau apa2 tu kot la depa percaya.....

p/s: Harap2 ada la bos kementerian kesihatan terbaca posting aku nih. Ajaq skit staff depa jgn nak muhong.....tapi pelik la..aku kt Hospital Selayang xdak pon mcm nih...kecuali la sorg dua misi yg tua dh nk pincin....ada la skit muka muncung...yang lain baik sesangat

Menobody

2009-02-19T17:22:00.002+08:00

Dah lama tak lihat perkataan ni di mana2 since 2 years back...y? only me knows y and that person of course but i don't think that person came across with my blog anyway....

Since February 9th, i am totally be a different person........tak tentu arah and malas nak blogging and etc22222.......

My life is just me n my baby n truly at this time i really miss my husband. I miss him alot....(sedeyyyyy..........kontrol beb....kontroll....kang ada yg nmpk hang teriak sorg2)

I miss his morning kisses, his evening hugs, our cat fight everyday, our dinner together even as simple as bihun goreng, our solat jemaah n our mengaji time together. I wish he is here with me right now.

Imported Cars, Local Cars n Rear Seat Belt

2009-02-10T10:09:00.002+08:00

My late father's 1st car was Mazda. Later he bought a Toyota Corolla KE30 when i was around 3-4 years of age. When i was 12, he bought a Proton Saga Megavalve and still keep the Corolla. When i was 16, my mom bought an Iswara Aeroback for herself (which became my car since Aug 2004). The first car driven by me when i was 17 was the old Toyota. No aircond,no cassette player. Just a normal radio player with only AM frequency. Now, since last year we drive a Chevy.

Me myself prefer a Toyota....an Estima to be specific or a Camry or a Yaris...Vios pun boleh la pa...;P (amboi napsuuuuuu.....hehehe......)...sudehhhhhhh...........merapu plak dah.......

This is the serious one. Since i gave birth to Humaira Safiyyah, i started to be very protective to my baby. We bought a car seat for her so that she will be able to travel safely with us. As we drive a Chevy, we never had any problem fastening rear seat belt to our baby's car seat. Both left or right and even on the front seat (masa 1st time drive bwk si kecik nih aku letak dia kt depan...skali jerk....2nd time n seterusnya truih boh kt blkg).Full stop!!!

Since past few weeks, i reside in my hometown at my mom's house with our little princess...this will be until early May. I rarely go out when staying here....reason....1st duit tarak...2nd takdak mana nak pi pon...Last saturday, my husband came back visiting us. So on sunday we went back to my in laws house in Alor Setar driving my mom's Perodua Kembara DVVT. Unfortunately, we wont be able to fastened the seat belt to the baby's seat, reason.....seat beltnya pendek!!!!!!! adoi laaaaaa......what i did was fastened it across the seat (not around the seat) and sandwich the baby's seat against the front and back seat. Harap2 ok la...pelik betoi aku apadehal jadi lagu tuh.

The government's new ruling on the rear seat belts make me think twice. Memula, memang teman setuju bebenor tentang pemakaian tali pinggang belakang nih. Tapi bila kena macam ni elok la depa setkan bench mark on standard length for rear seat belt tu dulu. Kalo dah tali pinggang pun tak selamat, cemana la nak mewajibkan orang pakai seat belt yang kunun2 untuk keselamatan penumpang tuh. Hmmmmmmm.......pelik betoi..

To local cars manufacturer...PERODUA,PROTON,INOKOM(for Hyundai) tulong la check rear seat belt yang anda pasang pada kereta yg anda jual tuh. Jgn la nk harap ke untung ataupun untuk sekadar hiasan ja sebab ramai org nk guna seat belt tuh utk keselamatan....takkan la kami nak beli keta hangpa pastu nak kena tambah duit tukaq seat belt lain kotttttt...........

To Malaysian government, tulong la buat study betoi2 untuk apa saja ruling yang hangpa nak buat...jgn jd follower ja...org len buat, hangpa pun nak buat!!!!!!!.........LU PIKIR LA SENDIRI

Tagged

2009-02-07T00:35:00.003+08:00

Last month i was tagged by Kak Umi aka emaknya si chumie n qayyim. Due to internet connection yg ala2 macam bas PPMP (Pelan-pelan Mampuih Pi) kat perlih dulu nun terpaksa la dilupakan dulu. So now dh ada masa, blh ler teman menjawab tagging kak umi nih...

1. Copy Badge untuk diletakkan di blog anda.
The badge..

2. Link atau ceritakan kembali siapa yg memberikan award ini kepada anda.

Awarded by Kak Umi @ Tokyo. How did i know her? via AnakPerlis.Com...dia ni kawan sekampung la kiranya. At the moment being my kawan bergosip kisah2 panas seluruh dunia and kawan rujukan dan tempat meluahkan rasa. Tima kasih la kak umi....

3.Setiap blogger hendaklah menyatakan 10 fakta/hobi diri sendiri sebelum memilih pemenang seterusnya.

10 Fakta adalah seperti berikut....(chewahhhh...ala2 jawab soklan SPM plak)

1. Penah sampai ke Nihon masa umoq 16....student exchange. Tapi umoq 26 baru jejak kaki ke Johor...itu pun sampai Segamat jerk

2. Baru pandai masak gulai/kari daging sebulan yang lalu...selama ni cek tatau masak gulai daging....maluuuuu.....

3. Koleksi handbag lebih daripada kasut. Tak kisah la mahal ker murah janji menarik pada pandangan mata, cek sapu ajer...

4. My husband is not my 1st love, but he is my true love. (Ala2 ramai boyfren la masa dolu2 nih)

5. Penah buat slimming treatment few years back tapi tak kuruih pun....terbang duit cek beribu riban

6. Pas lesen kelas D (kereta) masa umoq 17....only managed to drive after SPM exam....1st car i drove was Toyota corolla KE30...plet no KM7310...mana la keta tu la nih....

7. Malas betoi nak lipat baju....selalu baju tu dok dalam bakul berhari2

8. Manja la tersangat...mengada2 pun ada gak kot....pantang kena marah ngn laki skit, mula la nak teriak....apadaaa........sensitipppp......

9. Masih berusaha untuk turunkan berat badan.....adesssss......bila la nk kuruih nihhh???

10. I was born Disabled. Tumit kiri tak boleh cecah lantai...ala2 rengkat skit.....recovered when i was 2...this was done traditionally tru massage. Arwah dah tukang urut tuh

Okkeh.........siappppp...........now nak 'mengetagged' lagi 10 maknusia

1. Tini da SPLITS (sori la cik tip...aku masih suka guna perkataan SPLITS tuh)
2. Ina
3. Mommy Sarah
4. Cik Mai
5. Kak Azie
6. Sharipah Leo
7. Hj Addie @ Brunei
8. Tursina
9. Anne tokey tepawer
10.

TIGAPULUH

2009-02-06T18:31:00.004+08:00

I turned 30 on February 1st. How time flies. Rasa macam dah tua pun ada jugak but still perangai cam bebudak walaupun dh jd mak budak. Hehehehe......This year i celebrated my 30th birthday in my hometown with my little princess and other family members without presence of my husband. huhuhuhu....sedihh.....we had a simple makan2 with a birthday cake of course eventhough not as good as my fav Secret Recipe's tiramisu or Equatorial choc cake.

Being 30, i have a long list of things to do as well as responsibilities as a wife and a mother. I hope our dream and wishes come true.

Here's some pic during makan2...

Birthday cake....disponsor oleh Dura n Emi...seperais la kunun

Chop lilin....

Cake cutting

Si kecik yg jd tumpuan

Camera shy plak...

Humaira Safiyyah n her tok nyang

Naughty smile from my 'hidung penyet'...tgh mood baik nih

Humaira Safiyyah Balik Kampung

2009-02-05T21:47:00.003+08:00

We were advised by the paeds not to travel due to our little princess' condition until she reaches 12 months of age. However, her mad papa suddenly decided for a balik kampung trip on Christmas eve, in December last year. (Due to maxis broadband yg kokak, i only manage to post all entries since end of last yr today...ala2 citer basi la nih)

He arrived from work almost 7.00pm that day and suddenly asked me to pack our things for the trip. I thought that he was joking at the beginning. I continued doing my laundry and other stuffs while listening to his 'joke'

After half an hour i realised that he mean it and i started to pack. Everything ready an hour later and we begin our journey after Isya' prayer. First we went to Alpha Angle to get a car seat for our princess. Takkan la nak pegang sepjg jln kot kan....n the other thing is for her safety. We wouldn't know wht will happen.

We left Klang Valley almost 11.00pm after berhempas pulas memasang car seat tuh dalam gelap. hehehehe......at first she refused to sit in that seat. After few attemp, i managed to put her in and make her sleep. Stopped at Tapah RnR for supper and changed her nappy and later we continue our journey.

We arrived around 4.00am at my in laws place and stayed there for 3 days. We went back to my hometown in Arau on saturday evening and returned to KL on monday afternoon. Here's some pic of her enjoying her 1st long journey trip for balik kampung

Airmata 2009

2009-01-13T18:14:00.004+08:00

Tirai 2009 ku lalui dengan penuh kesyukuran dan kegembiraan.Puteri sulung kami sudah pulih dari masalah pada matanya. Kata Dr. Azura, everything is fine for now but she needs to go for another check up in june in order to detect if she has retinal detachment, myopia (nearsightedness), strabismus (crossed eyes), amblyopia (lazy eye), and glaucoma. I hope she won't be suffering any of these. Enough of suffering for her.

Sedang kami bergembira dengan kesihatan sang Puteri yang semakin baik, kami dikejutkan dengan berita kekejaman Israil di Gaza. Serangan demi serangan yang mengakibatkan banyak nyawa yang tak berdosa melayang.

Paling menyedihkan Hospital Shifa' diserang tanpa perikemanusiaan. Yang menjadi mangsa anak2 kecil yang baru lahir. Bayangkan bayi2 kecil terpaksa berkongsi ventilator, cot. Aduhaiiii........malangnya nasibmu anak. Bayangkan apa yang akan berlaku kepada mereka. Dengan ketiadaan bekalan elektrik mana mungkin ventilator yang ada boleh beroperasi secara optimum.

Semoga Allah melindungi kalian. Kamu tidak berdosa duhai anak. Andai aku mampu membawa kesemuanya kesini untuk rawatan, aku sanggup apa sahaja kerana Puteri sulungku mendapat segalanya dengan sempurna disini. Tapi apakan daya, aku hanya mampu berdoa agar semua siksaan ini tamat secepat mungkin.

Celakalah kamu wahai Yahudi!!!!!!! Allahhu Akbar!!!!!!!!!!!

Swing vs Bouncer

2008-12-24T14:56:00.003+08:00

Our little Humaira Safiyyah hardly sleep at night nowadays. It tooks us at least 1-2 hours to make her sleep. Dukung la, riba la sumer cara la kami buat.

One day, Aunty Seri adviced mama to put Humaira Safiyyah in swing like kakak Sarah. Mama n papa refused to do that as it will be so much trouble if we travel. Kalo balik kampung takpa la aunty...kalo nak pi coti2 mesia ka internasional ka xkan la mama nak angkut ndoi @ buai @ swing kottt.......hehehehe...... instead of swing, Aunty Seri advised mama to get a bouncer as an alternate to swing. Haaaa....yg ni blh dipertimbangkan dengan penimbang kat market tuh...hehehe....

Last saturday, Aunty Tinie n Uncle Zul visited us (depa nk tgk Humaira Safiyyah ja.....bkn nk tgk mama ngn papa sebenaqnya). They bought her a bouncer, orange color. We quickly use it and tried to put her in. Mula2 takmo la...meragam la jugak. After maghrib when we put her again in there and later she sleeps more than 3 hours. Lena betoi. Mama quickly sms Aunty Seri to inform and told her that she is right about the bouncer. 100 markah utk Aunty Seri. Hehehehe......

As the thing is already assembled when Aunty n Uncle bought it, we just simply put her in without checking on anything, assuming that the bouncer is fit enough for usage. After 2 days, using it, i found out that one of the metal stand was wrongly assembled. It was upside down. This was discovered by my brother who arrived on Monday morning. Aparaaaa...........mama, papa,uncle n aunty sorg pun tak pasan menda tuh terbalik.....padan la len macam ja....huhuhuuhuh.......truk betoiiiiiiii........

From last saturday until now i keep using it as she will sleep for at least 2 hours before wake up for feeding.

Thank you Aunty n Uncle for buying the bouncer for Humaira Safiyyah.Mama n Papa really appreciate that.

Here's some pic of her in bouncer.....The teddy ornaments Papa sudah amik boh dalam keta.....sori no Aunty

1st nite guna

Lena....blanket2 takmo yer mama

Bestnya lena

Kemarin

Besi yg bwh kanan tu la PakNgah discover terbalik kot....kuikuikuikui....

100 Days

2008-12-24T13:41:00.003+08:00

Our little princess is already 100 days last sunday. We are so grateful as she is healthier and heavier than her 1st day of life.

The blood vessels in her eyes reach zone 3 which is really a good sign. She is almost fully recovered. Means no weekly check up in the hospital and she will be able to see like normal babies. I think she will be able to have a clear vision as she will smile back at me if i tease or talk to her.

Last thursday her weight is 3.65kg. which is 2.59kg heavier than the first day she was born.

She loves to be cuddled before sleep. She waits until mama cuddle her before she close her eyes and sleep. Mama? macam nak tercabut paha dan lengan menimang dan memeluk tuan puteri kembang setaman nih. At nite, she wants papa to cuddle her before she goes to sleep. Kalo tak sanggup tak lena tuh. Tahan mata.

As she grows up, there's a lot of things we discover about her. She loves to make some horse like sound everytime she wants our attention. She can't wait more than 2 minutes if she hungry. As time passes by, she hates medication. She will spit out slowly the medication in her mouth. Mama pun apa lagi...pot pet pot pet la....as usual....anak mama buat muka inesen jerk ala2 tak bersalah. Since few days ago when i said "kita makan ubat na...." dan2 mata pejam, mulut tutup rapat. When i said "mama tau saja ja buat2 tidoq takmo mkn ubat kan?" She will give her sweet smile to me. Aduhai anak......pandai betoi nak amik ati mama yg nak berleteaq nih....huhuhuhu....

Here's some pic of her on her 100th days of life

Baby Sling

2008-12-19T16:24:00.007+08:00

I bought baby carrier weeks ago as my husband won't be able to accompany me to the hospital every week. I need the carrier so that i can hold my little princess as well as a bag contains her formula, diaper etc. However, the carrier is quite big which doesn't fits her. Ruginya duit cek....sapa nak beli habaq mai....

Therefore, i decided to buy baby sling after few conversation with my dentist friend, Dr Cindy. I bought the item online which cost me more than the carrier i bought.

Yesterday, i use the sling to the hospital. Very convenient as she has a sound sleep inside the sling and i did not suffer back pain after a long time holding her. We were there from 8.30 to 3.00pm. Unfortunately, upon arrival at the hospital, everybody were staring at me and my little princess. Macam nampak alien...adoiyaiiiiiii.......depa ingat aku ni indon kot...helloooooooo..............even mat salleh carry their babies in sling tau.....again the person sitting next to me, in front of me and behind me looking at me again when i talked to my baby using bahasa perlis n english (i taught her bilanguange) agaknya nak mengkomferm aku ni bkn indon kot.

Pelik aku la org2 mesia nih...takleh tgk benda lain skit dr yg lain pakat kalut nak tengok. So, me dengan berlagaknya buat muka ala2 kembang semangkuk nak menunjukkan baby sling aku yang baru dan canggih nih.....

Even the doctor said that was a smart move to make myself and baby comfortable. Pedulikan apa org nak kata......that's what i thought in the early beginning...janji aku tak sakit badan n anak aku comfortable sudah

So here's the pic me using the sling with my little Humaira Safiyyah

Mama n Humaira Safiyyah

Mcm kangaroo plak

No more back pain

Intai skit.....

Lena....

Oral Thrush

2008-12-19T09:46:00.003+08:00

Oral thrush in mouth

Oral thrush is a very common infection in infants that causes irritation in and around the baby's mouth. It occurs when the fungus candida albicans accumulates on the lining of the child's mouth and leads to infection.

Oral thrush causes creamy white lesions, usually on the tongue or inner cheeks. The lesions can be painful and may bleed slightly when you scrape them. Sometimes oral thrush may spread to the roof of mouth, gums, tonsils or the back of throat.

Why Do Babies Get Oral Thrush?

Most infants naturally have the yeast candida albican in their mouths. Because their immune systems are not yet mature, the amount of yeast in the mouth can overgrow and lead to an infection. (Adults and older kids who have weakened immune systems because of an illness or something like chemotherapy also can get oral thrush.)

Oral thrush usually occurs within the first 6 months of life, and a baby with the infection will develop cracked skin in the corners of the mouth, and whitish or yellowish patches on the lips, tongue, or inside the cheeks.

Preventing and Treating Oral Thrush

There's not much that you can do to prevent your infant from getting oral thrush. Most cases go away without medical treatment within a week or two, but your child's doctor may prescribe an antifungal solution for the baby to swallow. And depending on your baby's age, the doctor may also suggest adding yogurt with lactobacilli to your child's diet. The lactobacilli are bacteria that can help eliminate the yeast in your child's mouth.

You can help remedy oral thrush if your child has it. If you are formula-feeding your baby or using a pacifier, it's important to thoroughly clean the nipples and pacifiers in hot water after each use. That way, if there's yeast on the bottle nipple or pacifier, your baby doesn't continue to get reinfected.

If you are breastfeeding and your nipples are red and sore, there's a chance you may have a yeast infection on your nipples, and that you and the baby are passing it back and forth. If so, you may want to talk to the doctor about using an antifungal ointment on your nipples while the baby is being treated with the antifungal solution.

If your child keeps getting oral thrush, or is older than 9 months and is getting oral thrush, talk with your child's doctor because this might be an indication of another health issue.

What i do to prevent this to occur.......

I read in a website saying that i need to clean the nipples and later soak in water added with white vinegar. I soak for 30 minutes and later wash again with the bottles and nipples liquid soap. Then i sterilise it using Avennt Striliser together with the bottles.

So mothers, do not take for granted on your baby's oral condition. The whitish spots in their mouth are not milk residue, it is fungus and need to be treated quickly

Panic Attack

2008-12-18T20:53:00.002+08:00

Yesterday morning around 5.30am i was about to feed my little Humaira Safiyyah when blood running out from her mouth. I was so shock. Quickly wake up my husband and within seconds we are ready to go to the hospital. Arrived Hospital Selayang within 10 minutes and straight away we go to the emergency department.

Upon arrival, there were 2 medical assistant there and one of them, a kelantan speaking guy attend to us. After explain my little princess' situation, he rang the NICU. Cakap mcm org lalok...ntah hapa2 tah. I asked him to let me talk to the doctor in NICU and later passed back to him. He gave a card and we go in to the emergency department. We were there for one and half hour before we can meet the doctor. He did not check on my baby at all. Just ask few questions and i told him the long list history of my baby and later he ask the nurse to bring us to do chest x-ray and blood test.

After the x-ray, we were placed at the emergency ward. The nurse came in to take some blood sample. She was crying so loud as it was so painful. Can you imagine the small hand being injected with the needle? She cried and a moment later her mama cried with her while hugging and kissing her to calm her down.

After 15 minutes the doctor came in just to tell us to go home and he told us to come again next monday for the appointment with the paeds....sepatah haram tak citer apa ponnnnn.....haparaaaaaaa.........

Today, we went for an eye check up. It took us merely 4 hours to meet the doctor as her retina is not fully dialated. Aduhhhhh............when we finished it's already 1.00pm means lunch time for all doctors and nurses. I went to the pediatric clinic and met Dr Grace while on our way to the clinic. After telling her on my baby's condition, she told me to wait until her staff came in so that she can arrange for us to meet the doctor today.

Around 2.00pm we met Dr Sam Wong. After few questions asked, he did some physical exam on my little princess. then he discovered whitish spots in her mouth. Then he asked me how did i managed the white spots. I told him that i clean it with cotton buds dip in warm water. He told me that it may caused bleeding in her mouth. He told me to stop doing it and prescribed some medication for her. It is a syrup called Tystatin to be taken 4 times a day for a week. After a week she should be fine. The withish spots is called Oral Thrush which is a condition in which the fungus named Candida albicans infected her mouth.

I will write full details of the Oral Thrush in my next entry.

Btw, her eyes are getting better and the vessels are almost fully develop and reach the 3rd zone of her eyes. This is a good sign and she only need to see the doctor 3 weeks a time now.

Quote of the day

2008-12-16T16:12:00.005+08:00

I got this from my fren.....i love those words....differ from my point of view but giving me some great ideas on life and friendship

Cukur Jambul di Hari Raya

2008-12-16T10:50:00.004+08:00

Humaira Safiyyah's tok & nyang arrived from Perlis on Friday evening 3 days before Hari Raya Haji. Her nyang (great grandmother) was so excited to see her for the 1st time. As usual, she behaves well in front of others. As both of my mom n my tok are here, decided to do the cukur jambul on Hari Raya Haji. We cook some pulut kuning and gulai daging and we distribute those dishes to our neighbours.

Mula2 memang la dok diam ja....after 30mins mula la kepala ke sana sini with her trademark bunyi cam kuda tuh...hehehehe....

After the bercukur was done, we did belah mulut. Which we give some honey and dates and zamzam for her to taste...besa la...dah anak mama...suka ajer time bg kurma tuh...pandai lak rasa sambil senyum2...

Here's some pic of her during bercukur and belah mulut.

Papa did the bercukur

Lena...

Habih razor mama sepeket...hahahaha....

Menten jerk

Mama jd esisten

Huhuhu.......habih botak anak mama

Papa start

Sedap la pa...manis

Senyum dgn nyang

Nyang plak suapkan

Humaira Safiyyah in action

2008-12-15T16:47:00.008+08:00

My little princess is 3 months now. Weighing 3.25kg last wednesday (December 10,2008), she put on 1.44kg since last weight on her last day in NICU. Alhamdulillah she is getting better now. Very demanding day by day. Here's some pic of her since i gave birth to her. I won't be able to show all pic as it won't be appropriate due to her condition in NICU.

Our 1st met on day 2 she was born

She will hold my finger everytime we met

Her palm can fit 1/3 of my index finger

Lepas minum susu....montot pun naik atas

Day 38....she can breathe on her own

Intai mama

She is a morning person...pic taken at 7.30am

Day 44......first hug, first touch, first kiss

She is at my arm's size

Papa's first hug

1st time pakai baju

Smiling at papa

Baju ni patut smpi lutut jer....tp dh smpi kaki la plak

Tidoq....

1st day back home....no camera please...

1st time potong kuku...berperang dgn papa

1st mosquito bites.....4 dots on her face

Makan ubat time....all vits actually

Sebelum.........see below

Selepas....no explanation needed...hehehe

Bathing time......with kain kemban from aunty umi.....sapa nk beli habaq mai

Tidoq time....macam ni la tiap2 hari

Sudah lalok.....mau tidoq la

Sukanya kena peluk pakngah tuh...

Bedak sejuk homemade from tok nyang

Muka senang hati sbb dh kenyang

Tok pampering her

Muka happy kena pamper dgn tok

Runtuh Lagi

2008-12-13T21:47:00.002+08:00

Kuala Lumpur dikejutkan dengan kejadian tanah runtuh yang berlaku di Bukit Antarabangsa pada pagi Sabtu 6 Disember 2008. Kejadian yang berlaku pada jam 4.00 pagi melibatkan 14 buah rumah banglo yang terlibat. Walaubagaimanapun hanya 4 nyawa yang terkorban.

Sejurus kejadian berlaku, bantuan datang bertimpa2. Tak kurang jugak pak2 menteri termasuk la PM yg tgh dok bercuti kat Shangri-La Rasa Sayang Penang terjun balik mai kolalumpo nih sebab seksiteri dia pon kena gak. TPM aka soon to be PM and wife were also there. Kiranya semua tertumpu kat situ la.

Bila dah org2 kaya ditimpa bencana, mula la rasa tak puas hati itu dan ini, maka bermula lah komplen, maki hamun, tak puas hati kat org semua ada. Ada ka patut puak2 ni komplen kata jam hilang kena curi la, barang2 rumah kena curi la mcm2 lagi lah.Yg plg teruk kata polis bg cangkui suh cari kediri bini dia...aparaaaa......org tu tulung angkat brg hang...dia mintak tulung pegang ja cangkui tuh...hang tuduh mcm2....patutnya geng rescue tu bg bekho skali suh hang cari bini hang seniri. Dah la tuh, bantuan makanan pun depa takmo...tak makan lauk mamak nih...siap pi buang lagi. Teruk betoi perangai. Ada yg suruh rescue team tulung angkat barang depa. Haloooooooooooo........depa tu rescue team...tulung org2 yg kesusahan..bukan tulung angkut barang hangpa.

Sebenaqna tak ramai yg mati tu bukan sebab apa. Sebab byk rumah kat situ tuan tak duduk. Depa ada rumah lain dan dok tempat lain. Yg dok oversea pon ada. Makin lama aku dah makin meluat dengan gelagat depa nih...sudah2 la...bersyukur la rumah hangpa ja ranap...kalo ngn hangpa2 skali gol reta benda hangpa tak dan nk makan perabih lg....truk perangai puak2 org kaya nih....patutnya segala bantuan tu depa hantaq pi tempat yg kena bah/banjir teruk. Lagi kesian kt depa2 nih...bukan takat makanan, spenda pon takdak nak ganti. Geng2 bukit antarabangsa tuh bukan mau dok tempat pemindahan, depa pakat dok hotel...maklum laaaa.......org kaya...apa nak riso....sebijik rumah gone, ada lg 3-4 bijik...tak affected ponnnnnn........

Apa la aku merepek nih..tapi apa yg aku tulis ni semuanya betoi which aku dapat dari sumber2 saheh....

Retinopathy of Premature (ROP)

2008-11-26T11:46:00.003+08:00

This article is copied from PatientPlus, UK

Retinopathy of Prematurity (Retrolental Fibroplasia)

Background

The retina is unique among developing embryonic and foetal tissues in that it has no blood vessels until the fourth month of gestation. The vessels grow out from the optic disc, only fully reaching the periphery of the eye one month after birth.It is the incompletely vascularised retina that is susceptible to oxygen damage, especially in the pre-term infant. Retinopathy of prematurity (ROP) is a proliferative disorder of this immature retinal vasculature. It ranges from being mild with no visual sequelae to severe with marked visual impairment or blindness. The exact pathophysiology is not fully understood and it is unclear why some infants develop it whilst others, in a very similar clinical situation, do not. It is one of the few mostly preventable causes of childhood visual impairment in this country.

Epidemiology

ROP develops in 16% of all premature births, the figure rising to over 65% of infants weighing less than 1250gms at birth. Some studies suggest that as smaller and younger babies are surviving, its incidence is increasing. However, better understanding of screening and management of these babies has resulted, others say, in a decrease in its incidence. Risk factors are:

Prematurity (particularly less than 32 weeks of gestational age)
Low birth weight (≤1500gms and particularly if ≤1250gms)
Oxygen therapy (hypoxaemia and hypercarbia also increase the risk)
Co-morbidity

Screening

Development and progression of ROP relates to the baby's post-menstrual age - PMA (i.e. number of weeks of age since conception).The timing of screening and therefore the window of opportunity for treatment depends on this rather than the baby's post-birth age, especially in the more pre-term infants. The current guidelines are to screen all infants born less than 32 weeks of gestational age or weighing less than 1501gms. Babies born before 27 weeks are screened at 30-31 weeks PMA, babies born between 27 and 32 weeks or weighing less than 1501gms at 28-35 days post-natal age. Screening is weekly or fortnightly according to clinical findings and is carried out by ophthalmologists with a specialist interest in these problems. ROP does not occur until after vascularisation is complete and therefore babies who have not developed any problems by 37 weeks PMA need no further screening.

Screening: what does it involve?

Mydriatic (dilating) drops are instilled in both eyes, 2-3 doses 5 minutes apart, one hour before screening.
Topical anaesthetic drops may also be used.
The baby's eyes are kept open with a small speculum and examination is carried out with a head-mounted ophthalmoscope (indirect ophthalmoscope).
The retina examination is enhanced with a neonatal sized indentor, a small rod-like instrument used to gently depress the globe, enabling visualisation of the extreme peripheral retina. (A larger version is used in adults and can be uncomfortable but is not painful).
The examination is uncomfortable and distressing for the baby and is kept as brief as possible; comforters (e.g. administering sucrose solution, swaddling or pacifier) may help.

Associated diseases

Any systemic problems are related to prematurity rather than to ROP per se. Ocular consequences are described in 'complications', below.

Disease description

There are a number of descriptors used to characterise the amount of ROP. Management and prognosis depends in the location, the extent, the staging and additional factors:

Location: where it is - for the sake of description, the retina is divided into concentric zones centred around the optic disc. There are three of these, zone 1 being the innermost and zone 3 the outermost.
Extent: amount of disease - the retina is also arbitrarily divided into clock hours and involvement is expressed in number of clock hours affected.
Staging: what is occurring. There are several progressive stages, each describing increasing severity of the disease. They are:
- Stage 0 - no clear demarcation line between the developing but as yet non-vascularised area and the vascularised area.
- Stage 1 - a demarcation line appears between non-vascularised and vascularised areas.
- Stage 2 - the demarcation line becomes raised into a ridge
- Stage 3 - abnormal neovascularisation now occurs
- Stage 4 - the abnormal area detaches (retinal detachment)
- Stage 5 - stage 4 progresses to total retinal detachment
Other factors - 'plus disease' describes features suggesting a tendency for ROP to progress:
- Gross vascular engorgement of the iris and the pupils fail to dilate
- Development of a vitreous haze
- Dilated and tortuous fundal vessels
- Vitreous and preretinal haemorrhages

For instance, a baby might be said to have ROP in 5 clock hours (12-5) of stage 3 disease in zones 2 and 3 in the presence of 'plus disease'.

Management

The decision to treat is complex and based on the above characterisation of the ROP. Stages 1 and 2 need no treatment but stage 3 marks the point where treatment may be needed depending on extent and location. There are also issues surrounding the exact timing of treatment for it to be optimal. Once the treatment threshold has been identified, treatment needs to be carried out within 48 hours. Treatment options for stage 3 disease include laser therapy (first choice) or cryotherapy under general anaesthesia. A response should be seen between 2 and 6 days. Re-treatment may be carried out 10-14 days later if there has been a poor response. Treatment of stages 4 and 5 is more controversial as vitreo-retinal surgery may achieve reattachment of the retina but the visual outcome tends to be poor. Treatment tends to be to both eyes as the severity and progression of ROP in the eyes of a given baby tends to be similar.

Complications

Complications of treatment

Although treatment of severe ROP is associated with better long-term visual and structural outcomes, it carries a risk of both short- and long-term ophthalmic morbidities. These include:

Uveitis
Intraocular haemorrhage
Conjunctival lacerations
Vitreous, retinal or macular detachment
Corneal haze
Hypotony and occasionally, angle-closure glaucoma
Cataract formation
Myopia
Iris atrophy
Nystagmus

Cicatricial ROP

About 20% of babies with ROP go on to develop cicatricial complications which tend to be worse with more advanced and more posterior original ROP. There are 5 described stages:

Stage 1 - myopia
Stage 2 - vitreoretinal fibrosis which can pull on the retina
Stage 3 - Severe peripheral retinal fibrosis
Stage 4 - Partial retinal detachment
Stage 5 - Complete retinal detachment ± secondary angle-closure glaucoma

Prognosis

Stages 1 and 2 - the pathology completely regress back to normality with a good visual outcome for the child.
Stage 3 - this is a turning point: the disease may or may not progress and it is these patients who need particularly close monitoring ± ablation of the abnormal neovascularisation to prevent going on to detachment.
Stages 4 and 5 inevitably progress and require surgical intervention although there is not necessarily a good visual outcome, making this treatment controversial.
Severe disease is relatively infrequent; one study found that only 18% of babies weighing <1251gms>
ROP is more often associated with an increased risk of less serious ophthalmic problems associated with prematurity such as strabismus and myopia.

Our little princess is diagnose with ROP stage 2 and she will be having another check up tommorrow. If the ROP develop, she may need to go for a laser theraphy/cyroteraphy.

I am so worry if the laser treatment may hurt her. I hope the ROP is not develop and she not need to undergo the treatment

Masak - masak

2008-11-25T17:00:00.003+08:00

One of my favourite lauk is Masak Lemak Cili Padi Udang/Ketam/Daging Salai. So yesterday i decided to cook Masak Lemak Cili Padi Daging Salai for lunch. I googled the recipe and ask one of my fren to guide. Maka terhasillah Masak Lemak Cili Padi Daging Salai CheYah version. Hehehehe......the taste is quite good eventhough i omitted few things while cooking this Masak Lemak (perasannyaaaaaaaaaa............tapi ok la for the first time kan...)

For today's lunch i cooked Daging Goreng and Sayur Bayam

Enjoy the pic and the recipe

Masak Lemak Daging Salai (Roasted Beef in Coconut Gravy)

Beef
Coconut milk
Cili Padi
Tumeric - omitted, i used tumeric powder
Tumeric leave - omitted
Lemon grass
Asam keping
Pineapple ( you may opt for bamboo shoot or Belimbing buluh)

Beef roasted half cook and thinly sliced set aside
Pound the cili padi(and tumeric)
Boiled with small amout of water
Add in coconut milk, lemongrass, asam keping, tumeric powder and bring to boil
Add beef, pineapple & salt wait until cook
Ready to serve

Daging Goreng CheYah (Che Yah's Stir Fry Beef )

Beef
Potatoes
Shallot
Garlic
Ginger
Chilli powder
Tumeric pwder
Salt
Oyster sauce
Onion

Pound shallot,garlic & ginger
Marinade all the pounded ingredient with beef
Add in chilli powder,tumeric, salt & oyster sauce
Fry potatoes until half cook and put aside
Fry the beef and add in small amount of water (add in more water if you want more gravy)
Add in potatoes and onion wait until cook
Serve

Negotiation

2008-11-24T19:02:00.002+08:00

Our little princess is getting naughtier and louder. Kalo teriak tu takdak kontrol2 punyalah...loud and clear...adoiiii....mujoq la mlm2 siren bunyi tak kuat.
Nowadays she refused to be swaddled. If we wrapped her in the swaddle, it will only last less than 1 hour and later the swaddle terburai terus. So, i give her a chance whether she needs to use the blanket or we have to swaddle her. She will spit her medication (multivits, folic acid syrup) everytime i gave her. Therefore i decided to blackmail her (ganaz punya mama nih..what to do...kalo tak dia takmo) or should i say negotiate??? (i think this word much appropriate)

Since then, my negotitation with her begin....and the list goes....

1. If she refused t be swaddle at nite, means no sleeping with us on our bed early in the morning.

2. Every morning she needs to use the blanket to keep her warm so that she will be able to take a bath in the afternoon (i say swimming.....mama dia kemaruk nak bwk anak pi swim dah nih..hehehe)

3. She must swallow all her chocolate, orange and pineapple syrup (the colors of her medication are chocolate, orange n yellow), if she spit it out, means no bath and no swimming

4. She must sleep in her bed (her playpen) with mosquito net attach so that no mosquito can bite her and she will be able to sleep with us later.

5. Do not cry so loud if she poo poo or hungry or else mama will take time to change her diaper and warm her milk.

My negotitation seems work at the moment as she will normally listen and do as what i said. Mintak-mintak anak mama sampai besaq la dengaq cakap mama.

Buat baik berpada-pada...buat jahat jgn sekali

2008-11-23T12:28:00.002+08:00

Pada zaman Rasulullah S.A.W, baginda sering memberi makanan kepada seorang pengemis tua yang buta. Walaubagaimanapun, pengemis tersebut adalah seorang kafir yang amat bencikan Rasulullah dan dia tidak mengetahui bahawa lelaki yang datang padanya setiap waktu makan dengan memberinya makanan itu adalah Rasulullah. Setiap kali Rasulullah memberinya makan, dia akan bercerita Muhammad begitu dan Muhammad begini. Semuanya yang buruk-buruk belaka. Seorang yang semulia Rasulullah hanya berdiam diri dan terus memberi pengemis tua itu makan tanpa sebarang kata. Perkara ini dilakukan setiap hari sehinggalah Rasulullah wafat.

Selepas kewafatan Rasulullah tercinta, salah seorang sahabat baginda mengambil alih tugas tersebut. Ketika memberi pengemis tua itu makan, pengemis tua itu menolak makanan yang disuap kepadanya. Kata pengemis tua itu, "kamu bukan orang yang selalu memberi aku makan kerana orang yang memberi aku makan itu akan melumat-lumatkan makanan ini sebelum menyuapkan kepada aku. Dimana orang itu?" Kemudian sahabat tersebut menangis teresak-esak lalu berkata " Dia adalah Rasulullah, Kekasih Allah. Dia tidak akan datang ke sini lagi kerana telah meninggal dunia". Setelah mendengar kata-kata sahabat tersebut, maka pengemis tua itu insaf lalu memeluk agama Islam.

Sifat Rasulullah yang mulia itu patut dicontohi oleh semua umat Islam, walaupun di caci dan di hina, Baginda tetap membalasnya dengan baik dan tidak berdendam sama sekali. Malangnya saya masih tidak dapat mencontohi sifat mulia Rasulullah. Saya tidak berdendam tetapi tidak dapat melupakan apa yang telah dilakukan oleh individu-individu tertentu yang telah melakukan sesuatu kepada saya. Melukakan hati dan perasaan saya. Individu-individu yang kononnya rakan, sahabt dan kawan dunia akhirat. I can simply forgive but i won't forget. Perasaan marah yang tak dapat dibendung menyebabkan saya membenci individu-individu tersebut sehinggakan saya tidak dapat melihat kelibat mereka malahan menyebut nama mereka pun saya tak sudi.

Maafkan aku ya Allah....aku tak sekuat dan setabah orang lain dalam membendung amarah ini......maafkan kerana aku masih belum mampu mencontohi sifat Kekasihmu, Rasulullah S.A.W

Nasik Ayam 1 Jam Sahaja...

2008-11-19T15:51:00.005+08:00

I've been on leave both medical and annual leave since September 2, 2008 and will be on unpaid leave for 6 months beginning November 21,2008 till May 21, 2009. Therefore, my routine as a mother and a wife has changed since i gave birth to my little princess.

Everyday, i will be at home doing normal things all housewife need to do (Kadang2 terpeleot gak sbb sllu buat keja rumah weekend jer) and the most important thing is nursing little Humaira Safiyyah.

Today, for the first time i cooked Nasi Ayam for lunch as my husband will normally came back and have lunch with me. I cilok this recipe from Ina's Fotopages with few alterations here and there. I managed to complete everything in 1 hour so that my husband may have luch on time.

So this is my version of Nasi Ayam. My husband said the rice, chicken, and the chilli are perfect but i need to improve on the sos kicap and the soup (he wanted me to add some chicken in it). Alaaaaa........1st time...besa la kan...ada la yg tak perfect tuh.....tapi sorg 2 pinggan gak balun ;))

Tiba2 teringat bihun kari la plak...bila nk masak tah la....

The set of Nasi Ayam (ignore ja lapik meja yg huduh tuh)

How i prepare the :

Nasi

3 cups of rice (ikut suka byk mana anda nk masak)
1 tablespoon ghee (minyak sapi)
Chicken skin n fat (i put 1 tablespoon, cut into small pieces)
Ginger (ikut la byk mana pun....hiris nipis)
2 cloves Garlic (hiris nipis gak)
Pinch of salt for seasoning

Heat the ghee, saute garlic,ginger & chicken fat
Put the rice (cuci bersih2 dulu) fry for 2-3 minutes
Put into the rice cooker add water (version nak cepat) and salt
Cook as usual.

Soup

Water
Garlic
Ginger
Salt
Potatoes
Carrot
Chicken Stock
Chicken

Boil water, add garlic, ginger, potatoes,carrot & chicken
Add chicken stock & salt.
Remove chicken when its cooked
Serve the soup. You may add celery if u want to.
Add spring onion & chinese celery (daun sup daa...)

Kicap

Soup
Soy sauce (i use lite soy sauce...toyu pekat xdak)
Oyster sauce
Honey

Bring everything to boil together with the chicken (the same chicken in the soup) 5-6 mins
Remove the chicken
Serve

Ayam goreng

Oil for deep fry (kes nak cepat)
Ayam (the chicken in the soup then in the kicap)
Fry for 2-3 minutes (ikut suka nak garing or tak)

Chilli

3 fresh red chillies
1 tomato
2 lime (take the juice)
Blend all together

And the answer is........

2008-11-17T13:39:00.003+08:00

A PLAYPEN..........

After considering my frens' advices, i decided to get a playpen for our little princess... (gambaq akan di updet kendian). These are few reasons why i choose the playpen :

1. Mobile - as both of us from the north and we may need to travel regularly, the playpen is more suitable. It can be folded and comes with travelling bag which we can easily throw the playpen in the car boot. So nak balik kampung punya isu setel.....kt mana2 dia blh tidoq...

2. Cost - due to higher inflation rate and economic turndown recently, we need more savings for our future property,medical bills, household expenses etc, we need something cheaper and economical. So, this is the best. It cost me merely RM200 (actually, my mom bought it for her granddaughter...but still, i choose the cheapest....xleh la demand sgt)

3. Space - currently we are renting a 2 room landed house. Quite small for us who live in a bigger house before.(rumah kt kpg ada 6 bilik....awat x kecik sungguh dok umah nin). Most of our things still unpack until we got our own property. So, we can easily store this playpen if we don't need it by folding it and keep it in the bag.

4. Usage - i can still use this when she grows up. I can put her toys, dolls etc in there and let her play while i am doing my work at home. Setelllll...........

Question.....to mother's or mother's to be only

2008-11-14T10:03:00.005+08:00

Hello mothers!

I need opinions from all of you. I intend to get a baby cot or a playpen for my little princess. I planned do this to train her to sleep alone instead of sleeping together with us in one bed. Some peoples said playpen is better which i can still use it when she grows older. I can let her play in there with her dolls etc. Whereas if i buy a baby cot, i can only use for shorter period of time as she may jump out of the cot.

So now mama dalam dilema nih....i am not sure which one should i choose.

BABY COT

or

PLAYPEN

What say you mothers?

Mama....Papa & Humaira Safiyyah

2008-11-12T11:55:00.002+08:00

After 60 days our Humaira Safiyyah went back home with us. I am so glad and so grateful to bring her back. But first 48hours at home is very crucial. We have to monitor everything. Her body temp, her breathing, her milk intake. We must be very extra alert and careful and must be hygiene too...

For the first nite, we decided to put her in bed with us. (sebenaqnya baby cot x beli lg). I have to sleep in the middle as we put her on the left side against the wall. Takdak la insiden terpenyek ka jatuh katil ka. While we have very sound sleep, suddenly i hear her voice. Alahaiiiii........anak mama tak lena rupanya. Dok main sorg2. Siannya anak mama nih. I feed her at 2.30 and she sleeps until 5.15. Feed her again and later we sleep until 7.30. Subuh gajah la nih.....truk betoiiii.....

We had a very good time last nite and hope we may expreince the best time throughout her growing up years......

Ermmmm..........

2008-11-11T16:56:00.003+08:00

We arrived at the hospital last nite almost 9.00pm. She was feeding by the nurse. Alamakkk...tak sempat la mama bg susu....the nurse instructed me to unpack my thing in the recovery room. They gave me the bed which i booked earlier. Melampau mama nih..siap buking2 bilik lg...mentang2 la sumer org dh kenai...

I am a bit nervous and i couldn't sleep until 12 midnite which is little Humaira Safiyyah's feeding time. I feed her and later put her in bed. I know she wanted to sleep with me but i told her that she will sleep with me later at 3.00am as i need to keep her warm under the warmer before we can sleep together.

She behave so well and sleep soundly next to mama at 3.00am. Unfortunately, the other babies next to our room cry the whole nite which disturbed her sound sleep (anak dara mama tak suka bisin2 wooo...........)

We woke up at 6.00am for another feeding and i went off for prayer. 7.30 the nurse came in to bathe the babies who reach 36.8 degree c and above and weight them. My little Humaira today is 1.815kg. Yehaaaaaaaaaaa..........most probably the doctor will discharge her today.

I went to get some breakfast and newspaper and later wait for the paeds to do morning check ups. Good news for us, she agreed to discharged my baby today as she satisfied with her condition (no fever,no apnea etc)

I am so glad to hear that.....Alhamdulillah...after 60days, she will be back with us.

Back in Action

2008-11-10T15:13:00.002+08:00

Saturday morning i woke up with fever and running nose. Sudahhhhhhh........jgn la demam...sian anak mama...i took shower, cook breakfast and express my milk. Alhamdulillah....i managed to get 40ml this time. It shows that i can produce more milk now. I feel better as well.

My husband went to visit our little princess alone in the afternoon. He didn't allow me to go. Wanted me to take a rest. Mama pun apa lg.....dh start la dondang sayang...skali kena spin daaaaa......DO NOT CRY!!!!! huhuhuhu......yala yala....mama x teriak la nihhhh........(padahai ayaq mata bergenang2....heheheh)

At last he sent me to the hospital after maghrib prayer and we need to leave by 8.00pm. He keeps warning me for not to cry....ala2 cd rosak plak....menda yg sama ja dok repeat...adoiyaiiiiii........

After 30minutes moment with my little princess, we headed back home. Dapat jumpa sat pun jd la...janji blh peluk cium anak mama....

The good thing is she is now 1.72kg. Cepatnya berat naik. Pipi pun sama naik gak la.....

We went again yesterday and the nurse ask if i am fit enough to be admitted again. I ask if i could be warded the following day so that i can prepare for my things.

I visited her around 12 today and she is so fine. Rasa mcm berat dh naik sebab pipi dh naik. I'll be warded again tonite and will be sleeping with my little princess. A bit nervous but i can't wait to be with her again. Kiss her as much as i want, hug her as long as i can and feed her with my milk......TAK SABAQNYA MAMA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Tak Ketahwan

2008-11-08T21:25:00.002+08:00

She lost her weight again yesterday. down to 1.6kg. I was so upset and i was so sad. I can't take this as i feel like i am not a good mother. I was crying all day as i can't really face this. The doctor came to me and talk to me so do the paeds, then later the sister (senior nurse) and the nurses. I still can't hide my sadness.

Later in the afternoon, the sister came in to talk to me and advice me to take a rest for 2-3 days at home. At first i was a bot reluctant to leave my baby there alone as she's been sleeping with me since the past 7 nites. I am afraid that she may be cold at nite and nobody's there to hug and keep her warm. I am worry of everything which i shouldn't be. She convinced me for a few time and later i agreed to take a few days break.

I talked to my mom and i cried throughout the conversation. As usual, my mom cries with me. She calm me down.

I hugged and kissed my baby. I keep saying sorry to her as i have to leave her alone in the hospital. I feel so guilty as i can't take a good care of her.

My husband fetch me after maghrib and we went back home. I was so sad to leave her alone there. I brought back her blanket which i covered her every nite. I can still smell her on that blanket. I slept with the blanket last nite. Had a very bad nite and i had fever as well. I had a very bad dream as well which i woke up in the middle of the nite. Luckily my husband was around and he calm me down.

A Worried Mother

2008-11-05T10:52:00.002+08:00

My little Humaira Safiyyah suffer weight loss since i started feeding her on sunday. From 1.73kg, her weight reduced to 1.69kg and today 1.64kg. I am so worry about this. The specialist just came for a visit and i told him that i forced her to take more milk but she refused.

The doctor said not to worry about this as this is normal for them as they started breastfeeding, these babies will have some reduction in weight as they use energy to suck. Do not force your babies to take more milk. Let them take as much as they need day or night.

Haaaaa.......lega mama...dah la anak kecik ja....makin kecik...tp pipinya menten gebu...heheheh.......still active as usual and very demanding now. No bising2, no wet nappy, no swaddle. Swaddle kalu alamat tgn terkeluaq la after 10 mins.

Mama kalut betoi laaaaaaa........Humaira Safiyyah menten jaaaa......and today she had her first bath too!!!!.......

Tidoq sekatil.....

2008-11-04T10:34:00.002+08:00

Since our first nite and second nite was not really good, i took a chance to sleep during the day as my little Safiyyah sleeps so that i can prepare for the sleepless nite.

I sleep as early as 9.00pm last nite after nursing her. The nurse woke me up at 10.30 to see her condition. As i look terrible last nite, she asked whether i am doing fine. I told her that i am ok, just lack of sleep the nite before and make me tired.

12.05am my little princess begin her normal routine. I bring her on my bed and nurse her while i am lying down. This make both of us comfortable. She normally feed around 1 hour so that i can take a nap in between. Janji nipple mama masuk mulut....setelllll..........at first i am afraid that she may choke if nursing that way but the nurse said it wn't happen and she guide me how to do. Legaaaaa........

I tried to put her in cot after nursing but it only last for 10 minuts. 1.00am sudah nangis laaaaaa.........i later decided to put her next to me and hug her throughout the nite. Lena la anak mama kena peluk........(sorry pa...i don't mean that....tapi utk kesejahteraan mama n safiyyah, kena la mama buat camtu....kalo dak demam mama). She doesn't accept milk with syringe. Only breastfeeding acceptable. Alamat botoi avent 10 bijik kat rumah tu jd tukun la nanti. Takpa la....simpan utk adik lg 3 tawon.....

I feed her at 1.00am, 2.30, 3.45, 5.00am and 6.30......dan dengan bangganya anak mama lena takdak keryau2 punya....bunyi skit2 ja.....

I went to the toilet around 5.30....truih berbunyi sakan sbb mama takdak.....dengaq sora mama teruih diam....alahai la anak.....perangai terbaru dia......dengaq sora papa semlm truih celik mata luas.....hmmmm.........anak bapak.....so papa....your football buddy is on the way back home.....selamat berjaga dengan anak....mama nak tidoq....heheehehe.......

Our First Nite

2008-11-02T16:59:00.002+08:00

My little Humaira has been transferred to recovery room yesterday at 6.00pm. Therefore, i am required to be admitted with her so that i can take care of her as well as breastfeeding her. I was a bit challengging as this would be the first time i need to do everything for her, changing nappy, feeding etc. Everything goes well as her papa arrived after maghrib and wait untill 10.00pm (all parents whose children are here need to leave this NICU by 10.00pm unless any emergency cases)

She is awake untill 10.30 and later has a sound sleep. She woke up again for feeding at 12.30 and i managed to give her 20ml of express milk as she is unable to suck my nipple properly (first time la katakan...mama pun kelam kabut gak...). She sleep around 1.30 and woke up again at 3.30 for another feeding. She really can be papa's football buddy. Pasni malam2 kalo Humaira mangkit nk minum mama handover to papa la....

Such a morning person, she woke up at 5.30 and awake until 6.45. Adoiyaiiii........mama pun rasa nak demam dah nih...dah la air-cond sejuk x sangga ( i am not an aircond tolerate which can caused my body temp higher at nite). She later sleep untill 8 which the nurses came in to weight her and if her body temperature is fine, they will bathe her. Unfortunately, she is not fit to be bathe, agaknya semalam sejuk sgt kot. I just need to changed her diaper, her kimono look a like dress and her swaddle.

It was a good experience on our first nite and today i sleep while she's sleeping and wake up when she needs some milk. Dua2 blh rest...takdak la weng mama mlm ni. And the best thing is she is able to suck my nipple properly since today's afternoon. I am so glad that she can manage to do it and i want her to be healthy. Just can't wait to bring her back home

Perangai terbaru.....mesti tidoq kat riba mama dulu sebelum masuk cot. Tak tidoq kalu mau dok merengek sorang2.....anak mama......such a wonderful feelings

Good News!!!

2008-11-01T01:17:00.002+08:00

My little princess is out of the ventilator on thursday morning and she is placed on the baby cot. They swaddles her in a green linen and cover her with few layers of blanket to maintain her body temperature.

I need to be warded tommorrow as they will start to train me and her for breastfeeding. She is able to suck now as nurses trained her with 1cc of milk everytiime they feed her. I can't wait for tommorrow. Anxious to be with her everyday and night. I can't wait to feel like a real mother feeding her baby.

We went for shopping tonight at Jusco One Utama and get few things for our little Humaira as i haven't buy anything for her yet. I bought a baby box few months ago as well as breast pump ( i asked ina to buy it for me from CPH). We bought few clothes, socks, bath towel, face towel. I was so excited looking at those cute clothes. I went to Isetan KLCC earlier and get her pink blanket as well as swaddle blanket (kain bedung). Psssttttt........i bought a bag too which i will make it as a baby bag but i quickly hide it somewhere. Kantoi kalu, habih sekotak beg aku kena bakaq ngn papa Humaira....hehehehe..........

I really can't wait for tommorrow...........

My first touch, My first kiss, My first hug

2008-10-30T14:08:00.002+08:00

October 25, 2008 (Saturday) is my 44^th day of confinement. We visited our little princess after zohr prayer and we go off to Shah Alam for Dani’s birthday party. Later we drove to KL to fetch my kak n anak (niece) in Putra Station as they arrived from Perlis.

Headed to Cik Mat’s house for Anak Perlis’ open house. Upon arrival only few peoples left as most of them already went off. Reached home around 7.30. I expressed my milk for my little Humaira and will send few containers of milk around 9.00pm.

Upon reaching the hospital, I saw the nurse is cleaning her and her ventilator. It is a normal routine every nite for them to change the linen for the babies. I asked if I could hold her for a while and the nurse assist me to hold her. I am so excited. The nurse brings a chair for me and bring my little princess to my arm. The precious moment which I’ve been waiting for 44 days. I can’t stop my tears while holding her in my arms. She is so small, only a size of my arms. She stared at me and so do i. She holds my finger so tight as she doesn’t want me to go.

I can’t tell the feelings I had that moment. I am so happy, so excited to hold her in my arms. I want her to feel comfort and secured in my arms. I wish I could sleep with her tonite and I want to hold her through the nite.

Then the nurse offered me to massage my little princess using baby oil. I massage her hands, her legs and later the nurse feed her with my milk. She fall asleep 10 minutes later and then I drove back home. I am so relieved that she is fine and healthy now. I can’t wait to bring her back with us.

As my mom is coming over next week, we will do some shopping for her. I am thinking of few things to buy. At the moment I have 6 feeding bottles for her and a baby box. Aunty Seri bought her 2 rompers and Mama thinks she needs more rompers. Easier to wear and change diaper if Humaira wee wee or poo poo.

I am a mother....Part 5

2008-10-30T14:05:00.001+08:00

Sunday October 12, 2008 (Day 31)

She is still on drip. No milk given and she loss about 10g of her weight. She is now 1.24kg (1240g) but she remains active as usual even though the needles for drip and antibiotic still on her both feet. I am so afraid that this may hurt her bur she remain calms. Adessssssss…………mama dia plak la yg lebey2…apadaaaaaaa…………..

I saw her diaper not in the position. Sampai tercabut strap…….I move her a bit so that I can pull back the diaper. And she’s a bit angry as I disturb her. It show’s from her blushing cheek and her movement. Kena pujuk la plak……..demand betoi la anak mama nih….

Then her papa recording few minutes movie of her. Dia pun apalagi…tunjuk perangai la…bukak mata luas2, angkat kaki ngn tangan bagai. Habih tok gelak la nanti tgk cucu perangai camnih….

Monday October 13, 2008 (Day 32)

The doctor started giving her milk again today since 8.00am. She seems tolerate with the milk. She is able to wee wee and poo poo like usual. I’m so glad to hear that. At the moment, she is not having any colic so good for her. I love to touch her pipi seketoi and her hidung penyet (this is what papa said)

Tuesday October 14, 2008 (Day 33)

Our little princess is given 9ml of milk and the consumption increase every time the shift for nurses’ changes. She has long fingers like papa and her feet like mama (jangan kaki besaq cam mama dah la...jenuh cari kasut mahai…kasut morah tak celuih….huhuhuhu……..) and I think she inherit my gene more than my husband (muka cam cina2 skit laaaaaaa…….ngengengenge……..mata tu tak tau la cemana….kecik cam mama la kot)

We laughed while looking at her reaction. Mama segan betoi dekat nurses yg ada. Anak mama dok tak diam. But the nurses said it is good for her as she remains active. Her roommates cry a lot but she, moves a lot.

Wednesday October 15, 2008 (Day 34)

We visited Humaira Safiyyah (Aunty Umi called her Che Piah) after maghrib as her papa had meetings all day today. Upon arrival, she is sleeping but I can see from the wash basin that she moves her feet. Adoi la anak mama……..so very the active (macam mak dia jugak la…..jgn riso yer mama…hikhikhik). She is given 17ml of milk now and I have to express more from now. Luckily I will produce at least 20ml for every 2 hours. Enough for her feeding.

Thursday October 16, 2008 (Day 35)

We arrived and saw our baby sleeping in her best position, tidoq senget. When the nurse is about to feed Humaira, she offered me to hold the syringe for my baby’s feeding. I hold the syringe. It is so much joy as this is the first time I managed to feed her. It feels like I breast feeding her. After feeding, she fall asleep and we left as her papa needs to reach the office by 2.00pm. As usual, her papa will tickle her feet and she will try to keep her feet away from her papa. It’s father and daughter things anyway. I just let both of them fighting each other.

Friday October 17, 2008 (Day 36)

My baby now weighing 1.41kg. As usual I will try to massage her hands and feet every time visiting her. Salah pegang maunya bok pelari kaki tuh. What I do is I will tell her first that I want to massage her and I need to tell her how long I need to take to massage her feet. I will begin with her toes up to her thigh will tell her what are the names of those parts. Her toes, her ankle, her knee, her thigh. I hope she can remember her body parts. So do her hands. Her thumbs, index finger, middle finger, ring finger, small finger. Her wrist, elbow and shoulder. I manage to massage her chest slowly with a sign of I, L n U stands for I LOVE YOU and I say it loud every time I did that.

Saturday October 18, 2008 (Day 37)

Since the raya holiday end, the traffic is so heavy during the weekend. It must be due to these people attending open house here and there. Normally it took about 10 minutes drive to the hospital but since last week, we only managed to reach the hospital after 30 minutes drive. Punya la jem tak sangga.

We reach the hospital in the afternoon. Our little princess seems taking her good sleep. When her papa looks in to her diaper, he told me that our little princess had poo poo. Aiiyaaaaaaaaaa………ni mesti nak suruh mama tukaq diaper nih. I ask the nurse what I should do as I am afraid to change the diaper. Then the nurse instructed me what to do. I know how to manage the babies as I used to help my cousins handling their babies but handling my little princess makes me scared. I am afraid if I might hurt my little princess as she is so small and very fragile.

It took me more than 10 minutes to change her diaper. I wipe using the wet cotton balls until everything clean and put her diaper on. I am so excited as this is the first time I clean her poo poo. My little princess even more excited. She moves a lot and this makes me kelam kabut. My husband recorded everything. I can’t wait to tell my mom that I clean her poo poo. Alahaiiiiiii…….exited betoi la mak sorang nih….malu kt org aihhhhh………hehehehe……….

We spent more than 1 hour there. And we went off for lunch.

Sunday October 19, 2008 (Day 38)

Visited our little princess after zohr. She is sleeping while we arrived there. I think she can feel our arrival as she started moving her feet and hands. I massage her hands and legs. As she cannot tahan her geli, she moves her body and sleep senget. I just let her in that position as she will definitely act against me if I move her body in a straight position.

Dropped by at the supermarket to get some groceries and we drove back home. Planning to do some shopping next week as I may need to be warded soon.

Monday October 20, 2008 (Day 39)

We arrived at 1.30pm but I went to visit our princess alone while my husband is having lunch at the cafeteria as he needs to be in the office by 2.00pm. Normally I will send the milk to the feeding room for storage first and later meet my little princess. Upon arriving at the room, I saw her nose tube is detached from her nose. When I asked the nurse she said they are trying to let he breath on her own. They started to detach it at 10.00am this morning. They will put it on and off every 2 hours to train her breath. Alhamdulillah everything goes well since morning and the nurse said the tube can be remove anytime soon as she has no problem breathing on her own.

I told her tok back in Perlis and her papa on our way back home. Lega hati mama yang gundah gulana nih.

Tuesday October 21, 2008 (Day 40)

Today, 11 years ago my father passed away. He died in front of me. It was so traumatic and it took me more than 5 years to cope with losing him. It was so difficult when I need someone to talk to as I only talk to him when I have problems. Nobody can be a good listener, not even a boyfriend. I miss him a lot everyday. Sometimes I feel that he is so close to me which I can feel he is somewhere around me. Maybe I miss him a lot makes me feel that way.

And today, the doctor removed the breathing aided tube from my little princess’ nose. She can really breathe on her own now. I am so touched and so thankful. She really shows a very good progress. She is given 19ml of milk now and active. I asked the nurse whether she cries a lot as I saw some of her roommates cry so loud and the boy/girl is much smaller than her. The nurse said she will cry when she poops and needs to be changed. I hardly hear she cries every time I visit her. Just a lot of movement here and there. I am afraid that she may turn left and right on her own as the tube already removed.

I talked to her today and told her everything.……

“I lost my father 11 years ago, I have your papa 2 years ago and I have you today. I can’t afford to lose someone that I love again. Promise me that you won’t leave me. I need you to be with me. I need your papa for us”

She seems understand and she hold my hand so tight to calm me down. She is so strong for me and will be stronger for her mama. I called her papa to tell him that the tube has been removed so do her tok back in Perlis. I send text messages to my bestfriends to share my joy with them. Thanks a lot dear friends for always be with me day and night to calm me down throughout this difficult time. I am so glad to have you since the past 15 years. I really appreciate our friendship.

Wednesday October 22, 2008 (Day 41)

We visited our little princess in the evening as her papa attending meetings whole day today. I send the milk to the feeding room and go straight to my princess’ room. Upon arrival, I saw another baby in a cot at my little Humaira’s place and the nurse immediately showed me where my baby is located. They moved her in the middle as today there are a lot of admission to NICU and makes the room a bit crowded. She is still awake when we arrived and give a sweet smile for me while I recording her actions. Kemain lg si kecik nih mcm tau2 ja org nk amik gambaq dia.

Her papa recorded another little Humaira in action and she shows her very good moves while papa recording. Mengeliat sakan….

Thursday October 23, 2008 (Day 42)

We planned to visit her in the evening as the traffic and the parking lot will be less crowded. At 2.00pm after having lunch the nurse called saying that my milk for our little princess almost finished. I need to send more milk for her. Since past few days I had a little bit troubles as I produced less milk. Only 20ml for each time I express my milk. This is so frustrating as my little princess taking more milk now. She is given 20ml for every 2 hours.

I reached the hospital around 3.00pm and had a short chat with her. She smiles to me when saw me there. Hilang rindu mama. As she is getting better and healthier now, she moves a lot sampai melongsoq ke bawah. Mama pun kena la letak Humaira balik elok2 tapi bertahan 2 minit jer. Adoiiiii……..jgn smpi jatuh ct esok dah la. She cheer me up. I feel less worry now and I hope she’s getting bigger and stronger and healthier.

We send milk again in the evening. She is still awake at 9.00pm. Tidoq la awai anak ooiiiiii………jgn tidoq lambat…jenuh mama nak berjaga esok nih…she smiles at her papa and they had some precious father and daughter time together. We left at 10.00 when she’s about to sleep.

Friday October 24, 2008 (Day 43)

I didn’t sleep well last nite and woke up at 6.00am to express more milk for my Humaira. Eventually the things doesn’t do well. I managed to get 60ml since last nite. I quickly drive to the hospital to give my milk. I need to reach there before her feeding time at 8.00. I managed to arrive on time. She is already awake at 7.15. I found out that the cap covering her head was not in the right place. Half of the cap covering her right eye. Macam pirates of the carribean plak mama tgk. Hehehehe…..i managed to snap a few photos of her in that way. I drove back home half an hour later as I don’t feel well.

Upon reaching home, I took a nap and later wake up again to express more milk. I sent another batch of milk for her at 1.30pm. She is awake and I managed to snap few more pics and send mms to few peoples who were asking for her photos. I talked to the nurse telling her that I managed to produced a small amount of milk and started to cry. I was so frustrated because I can’t give her as much as she needs. The nurse told me not to tense about it and I need to relax to produce more milk for my baby.

Send another batch of milk in the evening. When her papa talked to her she smiles. Had papa and daughter precious moment while mama recording their good time. Papa needs to move Humaira back to the right position and as usual It only last 3 minutes or less I think. She opened her little eyes when hear my voice. Smiles and look at me. I wonder if she has dimple like her papa has.

I am a mother....Part 4

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Thursday October 2, 2008 (Day 21)

Second day of raya. We visited our little princess in the afternoon. She is so smart. Whenever she felt that she needs me to be there longer, she will hold my finger so tight to tell me that she doesn’t want me to leave. I’ll wait little bit longer before I ask her permission for me to leave. When she loosens he hands, I know that she is ready to let me go.

We visited her Tok Ngah (my uncle) in Desa Sri Hartamas later in the evening and left around 10.00pm due to heavy rain.

Friday October 3, 2008 (Day 22)

My little princess is awake when we were there. She can’t really open her eyes as the light in the ward is on. I have to shadow her so that she can open her eyes and take a look at her mama and papa. Later she closes her eyes again. As usual, her naughty papa will tickle her little feet and she will try to move her feet far away from papa. Merah muka dok tahan geli.

Later we went off to KLCC to get a sterilizer to sterilize my breast pump. I managed to get it from Mothercare as I got my membership there and receive few percent of discount. Still eyeing on the stroller. I intend to get Quinny Zapp and Maxi Cosi Cabrio Fix. Tang mana la ada sales ni. Currently the whole set cost RM1699.00. Where can I get cheaper Quinny Zapp? Tulunnnnnn……..tulunnnn………

Saturday October 4, 2008 (Day 23)

Humaira Safiyyah’s tok (my mother) keep asking about her granddaughter every day. Asking for her size, her health and everything. I need to report to her everyday as she is not allowed to enter the NICU (only father and mother are allowed)

I managed to stay longer as my husband is not working. I am so glad to be with her longer. The nurse has told me earlier that I will be calling to be warded again when she is out of the ventilator and need to start breastfeeding.

Sunday October 5, 2008 (Day 24)

My husband’s last day of holiday. I told my baby that I will be coming in the afternoon during her papa’s lunch time. Suddenly she brings my finger to her chest. I am so touched with her act. I touched her red cheek and her chin as well as her forehead. I can’t wait to kiss her. Mama miss u a lot, my hidung penyet!

Monday October 6, 2008 (Day 25)

The nurse called today informing that her milk storage almost finished. We managed to reach hospital by 1.00pm and send more milk for her. Kesian anak mama x cukup susu. Humaira Safiyyah opens her eyes widely today and papa managed to take her photos with her eyes opened.

My mother in law and sister in laws arrived today. We have to fetch them in Bangi and Kajang. We went there after Maghrib and later headed to hospital to send more milk for our Humaira Safiyyah.

Tuesday October 7, 2008 (Day 26)

My husband has to attend meeting whole day today and I decided to drive to the hospital alone leaving others at home. I managed to spend more than 2 hours with our princess. I talked and massaged her. It is so much joy having a good time together. Zikir, selawat to make her sleep. Susah gak la nak buat anak dara ni tidoq sebenaqnya. Later she has a very sound sleep and I left home.

After Maghrib my brother in law and his wife arrive and we had dinner together.

Wednesday October 8, 2008 (Day 27)

My in laws leave for Alor Star in the morning. Then we headed to hospital and send my baby more milk. I managed to meet her for 2 minutes as my husband needs to rush to the office as he is having a meeting at 10.30 till late in the evening

We visited her again in the evening. She is awake when we reach there. Hidung penyet, pipi kembang mama ni makes me calm. I am so glad to be with her. Counting days for me to bring her back home.

Thursday October 9, 2008 (Day 28)

We visited her for a while in the afternoon and later after Maghrib today to send her more milk. I saw her sleeping in the ‘senget’ position. Adoiyaiii anak mama…kecik2 lagi dh tunjuk peel mcm2 nooo……….I tried to move her body so that she can sleep straight. Unfortunately I failed to do so. She ignored me and changed her position again. Alahaiiiiiiii…….so I took some photos of her in that position

Friday October 10, 2008 (Day 29)

My baby is given another blood transfusion today at 2.00am and the transfusion ends at 5.00am. She is not given milk today and only put on saline as she had colic the day before. Her stomach a bit ‘kembung’ yesterday and they afraid it may due to the air aided for her breathing. I am afraid that it may be due to my food intake the day before.

Saturday October 11, 2008 (Day 30)

Still fasting yet remains active. Moves her hands and feet and her body a lot. Senget benget the air tube on her nose. Her papa tried to place the tube in the correct position but as she moves her head, the tube will be senget again. Hehehehe……..sungguh aktif…other babies will cry a lot but she moves a lot. Like mother like daughter daaaaaaaa…………….kuikuikuikui………..

I am a mother....Part 3

2008-10-18T17:04:00.001+08:00

Monday September 22, 2008 (Day 11)

My mom arrived at 5.00am and my husband went to fetch her at Duta station. I was left alone but I can’t sleep due to an incident happened a few nites ago. They arrived almost half an hour later and they had their sahur. I continue my sleep till 7.

The straight berpantang regime started again. My mom prepared the bath for me. Later after shower I had my breakfast. Then she put the param (smelly herbs like body scrub) all over my body. Then I have to do the traditional way of body wrapping (nak bernapas pon susah) and bertungku. She monitored everything and forced me to take raw egg (teloq ayam kampong) with honey and turmeric. Baunya mak aiiiiiiiiiiiii…………..rasa cam nk pitam……..i swallowed everything and immediately took a large cup of milo to eliminate the smell and taste in my mouth. Rasa nak muntah……..

She looks better today as the blood count has increased. Alhamdulillah…….. They has changed the oxygen tube and put the oxygen mask on her nose. My baby moves her feet and hands as. We are so happy looking at her that way. It is a very good sign.

Tuesday September 23, 2008 (Day 12)

As my mom is still around. She takes a good care of me. But now I am having the other nightmare. The constipation. I hardly poo poo and afraid that the stitches will torn apart. Adoi laaaaaaaa……..horror. I tried to take few things but it doesn’t work. I went to the clinic and the doctor gave me pills and liquid medication to ensure that I can poo poo easily. Woke up in the middle of the nite to poo poo but I ended up sitting on the toilet bowl doing nothing and nothing came up.

My baby seems better today as she moves her hands and feet a lot. I am so relief to see her that way. But me myself having troubles with this constipation disaster

Wednesday September 24, 2008 (Day 13)

It is so wonderful being a mother. The feelings which I can tell eventough my baby is still in NICU. I touched and talked to my baby every day. I talked about everything. While taking to her, I touched her hands and she managed to hold my hands so tight. I am so glad when she holds my hands even though I am so much worry of her.

Thursday September 25, 2008 (Day 14)

My baby is getting better. She moves her feet and hands a lot. Her papa always tickles her small feet and makes her uncomfortable (geli la papa…..I am more like mama tak tahan geli….hehehe……..)

As usual, the mama will only hold her hands and talk to her. Sometimes she will open her little eyes to calm her mama as her mama is unable to control her tears. Papa warns mama if she keep crying, she better not to visit Humaira daily.

How could I stop my tears by looking at her in the ventilator with wires and tubes. I can’t even kiss or hug her. That is the most I really want to do now.

The breast pump arrived today. I asked ina to buy it for me while she is staying in Copenhagen. They came back for good early this month.

Friday September 26, 2008 (Day 15)

We are late visiting Humaira today. We reached the hospital almost 1.00pm. As today is Friday, we need to rush as my husband will need to perform Friday prayer at the mosque. She opened her eyes for a while and when we are about to leave, she cried. The first time I hear she cries after 15 days giving birth to her. It is so touching. I don’t want to leave her alone but my husband cannot wait any longer as it is almost the prayer time. I was so sad and as usual I cried. How could he let his daughter alone. He said that she is fine but I don’t think so. I am so worry thinking of my baby now.

Saturday September 27, 2008 (Day 16)

My mom left in the afternoon with my brother. He is on Hari Raya holiday. Only 2 of us left celebrating raya away from home this year.

My baby gives a very good responds now as she is free from infections, milk tolerate, no blood transfusion needed. They just need to monitor her lung and heart as other internal organs are fine. She can wee wee and poo poo like normal babies.

Sunday September 28, 2008 (Day 17)

I visited her a bit late today as her papa woke up late. We went to the hospital after zohr prayer. She is just fine and getting better. I miss her a lot and I can’t wait to be with her and bring her back with us.

Monday September 29, 2008 (Day 18)

Thought that my husband is taking leave today as Hari Raya is just 2 days ahead but he needs to go to work today. Fetched me around 12 to visit our Humaira. As we reached there, the nurse has just finished giving her milk and she was sleeping facing down (Nampak mcm tgh sujud). She looks so cute that way. She moves her knee to make herself comfortable. Can you imagine looking at her small bump moving. I am so glad that she is fine and healthy. My baby, mama can’t wait to hug and kiss you.

Today is the first time after 18 days I managed to control myself and I no longer crying while visiting her.

Tuesday September 30, 2008 (Day 19)

A day before hari raya. My husband takes a day off today to go for shopping. We planned to cook nasi jagung and ayam merah for tomorrow. I saw it on tv at Ketuk-Ketuk Ramadhan Sheila Rusly. This is what I’ve been doing for the whole month during confinement. I will only take a short nap at 12.00noon as well as after 3.00pm.

We visited our Humaira Safiyyah in the afternoon and she is having her good time sleep. Mata pun tanak bukak bila mama panggil. Hmmmm…….tidoq la dear….cepat besaq skit anak mama nih

Wednesday October 1, 2008 (Day 20)

Selamat Hari Raya, Humaira Safiyyah! Today is our first Hari Raya together. I woke up early and cook nasi jagung. I cooked ayam masak merah last night so makes my life easier. Her papa woke up and ready for prayer. Her ‘Nyang’ (Great grandmother) called me. She was crying while talking to me. This is the first time we are not celebrating Hari Raya in our hometown.

Later we headed to visit our little princess with our matching baju kurung and baju melayu. Mujoq la mama muat baju kurung tu. Kalo tak ada la org nak pakai pants and shirt pagi raya. She is so fine today. Having her good time alone there. As usual, her mama will talk to her and touch her hands and feet.

We headed to Sabak Bernam visiting my kak and my nieces and nephew celebrating raya in Parit Baru (my abang’s kampong)

I am a mother....Part 2

2008-10-18T16:53:00.003+08:00

Saturday-September 13, 2008 (Day 2)

I woke up early around 6.30 (I am a morning person) and it is still dark in the ward. My roommate in front of me hasn’t back yet from labor room (she was sent there almost midnight last night). They switched the lights on around 7.30 and I already wake up by then. Waiting for my husband to come and bathe me as I am afraid to take shower alone due to yesterday’s incident.

Around 8 the nurse came in to assist the other mother. She saw some blood stain on my cloth and asked me to change. I told her that I am waiting for my husband to bring undies for me. 8.30 He hasn’t arrived yet. I decided to do the showering alone. I went down from the bed, sit for a while and started walking step by step. Later in the bathroom I sit on the toilet bowl and started taking off everything, brushing my teeth etc. I took a very long hot shower as I haven’t take shower for 2 days. Not to forget mandi wiladah (mandi wiladah is taking shower after giving birth). I feel so fresh after showering (saya tak suka badan berbau as I always ensure I am clean and have good smell. Tak suka la BO nih)

Immediately after came out from the shower, I saw my husband waiting for me at my bed reading newspaper. Kena sejibik…. “Why don’t u wait for me? It will be more difficult if anything happen to u in there” (referring to yesterday’s incident)… me…kernyeh saja la….I told him that I can’t wait any longer as I feel like ‘kambing’ bcoz I haven’t had my shower since Thursday morning. Cannot tahan laaaaaaaa………

Then I asked him to ask the nurse when the doctor is coming as I wanted to meet my baby. They asked me to wait as they are unsure when the doctor will be there. Adesssssssss……..my baby needs me now. Mana la doc nih….mentang2 la sabtu…lmbt la plakkkkkkkk……………..

We keep waiting and waiting. The doctor only arrived at almost 11. After few words he said that I can be discharged today (tak tanya pon luka dh baik ka apa ka…truih blh blk jerk…adesssss……….). Then immediately I asked my husband to bring me to the NICU where our baby is located. We took a slow walk as I am not fully recovered. Upon reaching there, we go straight to the room she is located but first, I need to wash my hands properly before touching our baby.

Immediately looking at her I started to broke down. By looking at her inside the ventilator with a lot of tubes and wires all over her body makes my heart stop beating. I can feel her pain. She is so small and I don’t think she can afford all the pain alone. I wish I could replace her now. I can’t stop my tears at all. I talked to her slowly and I know that she can hear me well. They switched on the blue light for jaundice treatment as they said she looks a bit yellowish and immediately started the treatment. She is so small. Weighing 1.06kg, her size is as big as my palm and her length is about half of my arm. Her tiny size doesn’t even fit the newborn diaper. They just put in without attaching the strap. After half an hour we walked out the NICU as I won’t be able to stand for a longer time. I cried all along the way back to the ward.

Upon arrival, the lunch being served and guess what? They had rice, fish, veggie (kobis n sawi daaaa……I tried a bit) and watermelon (merah2…sedapnya nampak……) I only took the rice and veggie and a bit of kea and had it with beef and salted fish which my husband brought from home.

I had visitors too. Kak Jihan (senior manager of our team) and my boss as well as my Pak Ngah and Mak Ngah. Yesterday Cik Mat and Kak E visited me (they arrived during buka puasa time). My bestfen Seri Arni arrived around 4 when I almost finished packing. The other good fren of mine, Tini waiting nearby my house. Unfortunately we were unable to meet as she and her husband rushing for iftar at Templer Park.

Before left home, I visited her again and I still couldn’t stop my tears. I am not strong enough to see my baby like that. The nurse asks for my breast milk but it still hasn’t come out yet. This frustrating me as I really want my baby to have my milk as soon as possible.

Reached home almost 6 and later had bukak puasa with everybody. I couldn’t sleep as I keep thinking about my baby. I know that she needs me. I am so sorry sayang mama…….I wish I could stay with you but they don’t allow me until you are able to breast feed then they will allow me to stay together with you.

Sunday September 14, 2008 (Day 3)

We visit our baby again today around 11. Spent half an hour there and we headed back home. My husband dropped by at the supermarket nearby to get some groceries and I just lying down in the car waiting for them.

My brother and his fiancé visited me today. Mak cooked something special for bukak puasa. They had curry and few other things. I had soup with beef, carrot and potatoes as well as fried salted fish. My mom went back to Perlis by taking 10.00pm bus and left both of us alone.

My milk started to flow but only small amount. My breasts started to swollen. Both sides are so heavy and big and started to pain. I feel like my boobs is at Dolly Parton’s size now and I can’t even move my body easily. Around 3 am I woke my husband up to express the milk as it was so painful. I was crying while expressing using the manual breast pump. Both sides of my boobs still swollen but lesser pain than I had earlier. I put hot towel on it and managed to sleep until 6.30.

Monday September 15, 2008 (Day 4)

It is a busy week for my husband as he needs to finish the company’s account for the management. I was left alone at home. He cooked and prepared the bath for me and later left to work. I have to do everything alone. I just stay at home watching tv, sleep and expressing milk. I can’t be alone at this critical time as I will broke down every time I think of my baby.

The blue light was off this morning as she is now free from jaundice. Others at the moment are in good condition. I pray a lot so that she will be fine throughout the treatment. I feel that she is stronger than me now. The feeding tube connected via her naval. They changed the oxygen tube today. Previously the oxygen was supplied via her mouth but now they put on her nose instead. This shows a good sign.

I managed to produce 5-10ml of milk every 2 hours. I wish I could produce more milk for her.

Tuesday September 16, 2008 (Day 5)

They already started giving her my milk and now feeding tube is via her mouth not her naval. The tube direct from mouth to her stomach due to her weak lung.

She is given 6ml of milk for every 2 hors

Wednesday September 17, 2008 (Day 6)

My first day of massage. The mak bidan came to my house and started the massage and the bertungku. Punya la geli makcik….tak tahan…hehehehe……… my husband is at home today as it is public holiday for few states in Malaysia. 17^th of Ramadhan marks as Nuzul Quran here. (The 1^st day of our holy Quran was delivered to our Prophet Muhammad)

We visited her in the afternoon and spent almost an hour there. I forced myself to stand longer next to my baby so that she can feel that her mama is there waiting for her.

She is given 7ml of milk every 2 hours. She seems tolerate with the milk and this makes me happy. At least my milk can cure her as soon as possible.

Thursday September 18, 2008 (Day 7)

We decided to name her Humaira Safiyyah. Humaira taken from a root word Hamra’ in Arabic meaning “the red” as she was born red (she is fair). I think during Prophet Muhammad time, one of his daughter or the other friends’ daughter was called Humaira as she is red. I couldn’t recall. Maybe it was Abu Bakar As-Siddiq’s daughter, Aishah R.A was called Humaira. Safiyyah means grace (yang lemah lembut).

Not so much different from yesterday. Both of us pray for her safety.

Friday September 19, 2008 (Day 8)

My baby infected. We are so worry. She just lying there motionless. She looks so tired and needed to do blood transfusion. They took my blood to cross check with her blood and the donor’s blood from the blood bank. I wish I could give her mine but the doctor said they can’t wait longer as she is very weak. I can’t stop my tears by looking at her. I feel like giving up at this moment. I am so sad. She doesn’t deserve all this. She holds my fingers so tight. She tried to open her eyes as well. I tried not to cry as I don’t want her to see me in tears. I think she wanted to tell me not to worry about her as she is so strong to go through all this.

Saturday September 20, 2008 (Day 9)

We visited our baby in the afternoon. She still has infections. Strict hand washed sign was stick on her incubator. We must be more hygiene this time. She just lying down with less of movement. I hope she will be fine after the transfusion. Her tiny size makes me scared to touch her body. I only managed to touch her hands as I don’t want to hurt her.

She had breathing difficulties today and they put again the oxygen tube via her mouth. They also started the blood transfusion. The blood was give via her right hand and the saline is on her left hand. She must be so in pain now. She tried to open her little eyes to tell me that she is fine. But mama cannot take those things anymore. I cried and cried as I am so pity of her.

Sunday September 21, 2008 (Day 10)

I cried in the morning thinking of her. My husband wants me to stop my tears as he doesn’t want me to be sick. The post partum makes my emotions up and down. Luckily my mom is coming tonight and I will be less pain when she is around.

The blood transfusion still on. So do the drip. I met the doctor on my way to the NICU and asked her about my baby. She said that my baby still infected and not so well. She told me that all babies in the same room were infected due to increase number of patients in the NICU. She told me that if this occurs again until next week, she will close the ward for any admission and the new cases should be referred to another hospital.

I am a mother....Part 1

2008-10-14T18:35:00.003+08:00

September 12, 2008

The nurse woke me up at 7.00 to bring me to the PSC (I dunno what this stands for but it is located in Dewan Bersalin (labor hall) as the doctor is waiting for me there. I asked her for a few minutes for me to go to the toilet to change the panty and pad. By the time I finished my urinating, I couldn’t stand anymore as I am so much in pain on my back and my waist. The nurse knocked the toilet door and I opened it. I told her I cannot even wear my panty as I am so much in pain and I cried. She helped me to put the pad on the panty and waited for me to wear my panty. Thanks a lot for her help. Upon arrival at the PSC, the doctor already waiting for me and she do the scanning. When I told her that I had so much pain last nite, she looked into my uterus using the speculum and she said I am 4-5cm dilated. She said I will be delivered soon. I cried as I know the circumstances. My baby maybe died due to her small size. I cried and told her I was not ready. She said immediately I am pregnant, I must be ready for everything. I asked the nurse for help to call my husband and she lend her mobile to me. I called my husband and asked him to come to the hospital. Then the nurse send me to the labor room. I asked for a glass of water as I haven’t eat anything since 9.00pm last nite. She gave me half glass of water and send me to the labor room.

It is just a small room only located 1 bed with the dentist look alike light but slightly bigger . I do not see any surgical equipment in there. The other nurse came in and touch my belly just to check any contraction, put drip on my right hand and put a detector to check my baby’s movement I told her that I was so much in pain. She asked me to pray a lot . Then the doctor came in as well as the peadiatrician as they brief on my condition. After a while my husband arrived. I cried while telling him that I had so much pain on my waist. Rasa cam nk putuih pinggang wehhhhhh……… then the doctor came in to give me pain killer. She gave me 2 shots on my thigh to reduce the pain. I slept for a while then later the consultant came in. She asked me my condition and I told her what had happened last nite as the doctor in ward giving me 2 paracetamol to ease my pain. The consultant aka the big boss was so mad to her staff and she said I shouldn’t be giving paracetamol. Habih laaaaaaaaaa…………..even the nurse who put in the detector was scolded by her as she said the stap was so tight and shouldn’t be that way. Then she looked into my uterus using speculum and I am 9cm dilated, about 5 cm different within 2 hours. The nurse came in and ask if I feel like to poo poo but I said no. I fall asleep for awhile then I woke up when I heard a lady next door delivering. I heard the doctor asked her to push for a number of time. Suddenly I felt something came out. I asked my husband to call the doctor but he is nowhere. I shouted calling for doctor as she is only next door and she came in with the nurse. I asked her what should I do and she instructed me how should I do. And that time I can feel they do the episiotomy (using the something looks like scissors).Within 5 minutes the baby came out. 1 second I heard nothing. I asked the doctor why my baby is not crying and I feel so nervous. Suddenly I heard her voice cried once. Immediately the nurse cut the unbilical cord and bring her out to the peads. I asked about my baby but the doctor couldn’t answer. She asked me to be patient and pray a lot and I broke down.

While my baby was sent to NICU, the doctor pull out my placenta,however only 40cc came out and remaining 60cc still in my uterus. They tried to pull it out but failed. Few doctors came in to do it but the placenta still in there. It was so painful. Later they asked my consent for me to be sent to the OT to do the surgery for the placenta to be removed. It is almost an hour while waiting and another doctor (she is my bestfren look alike) came in. She touched my belly and later the placenta and pull it out. Alhamdulillah…the remaining 60cc of placenta successfully removed by her and I do not need to be in OT which I really scared of. Then the doctor do the remaining procedures. She do the stitches on the epi, clean me up,changed my clothes.

Then she asked me to rest for an hour in the room and ask me to take my lunch. Mana boleyyyyyyy.....i was so tired and can only take water. Tak lalu nak makan dah...hati teringat ke anak. Then my mom came in. I broke down when i see her and told her baout my baby. My mom pon keryau sama la...but she managed to hear that my baby is a girl.

Later my husband came back from friday prayer and my mom went out to wait for me in the ward. After the doctor satisfied with my condition, they send me back to the ward. I took a nap for a while as i was so tired. Late in the afternoon i need to go to the bathroom and changed. I managed to walk but i ask my husband to help me in there. Luckily he was with me, i almost fainted while i was changing. It is due to blood loss and i haven't taken anything since yesterday.

My mom and my husband left around 9.00pm. I managed to see my baby through my husband's mobile phone as he took her pic while performing iqamah to her ear. Other info remain unknown.

My Pregnancy.......Complication

2008-10-12T14:05:00.003+08:00

September 1, 2008

1^st day of fasting. Everything seems perfect as I told my baby that we need to fast today and no food during the day. I guess my baby understands as she just kept quiet all day long. I just did some household chores. So tired today and I managed to have sugar cane juice which I crave for so long….yummy…….

September 2, 2008

1^st day to work in Ramadhan. I drive to work today to make our life easier. We wanted to avoid heavy traffic back home so I decided to drive for the whole month of Ramadhan. I was in the toilet to poo poo. Suddenly, there are some clear fluid coming out. I feel strange as it was not my urine. When I came out from the toilet, the fluid doesn’t stop and it was more fluid coming out wet my panty and clothes. I quickly drove back home to meet the doc. Again, the fluid rushing out heavily when I arrived the clinic. She said that the fluid came from my waterbag/membrane. When she do the scanning, it shows that the amount of fluid in my membrane reduced and she advised me to be referred to the hospital. We decided to go to Damai Service Hospital, Taman Melawati. I refused to go to government hospital due to my very bad imagination of government hospitals (the fierce nurses, the bad food, dirty toilets etc).

We have to meet look alike George Clooney, Dr Halim as he was the only gynae there. The lady gynae is only available 3 days a week. What to do…I had to meet him…no choice. He gave me antibiotics to avoid infections and I was given 4 days mc for me to rest at home and will be seeing him again on Saturday.

September 3, 2008

My husband went off to Melaka for his business trip. Will be back the following day. I stayed at Pak Ngah’s house as my husband does not allow me to stay alone at home. So do due to my health and other reason. The leaking still occur 2-3 hours a time. I can feel that the fluid drained from my uterus. For those who never know how the fluid look alike, it is clear in color and has no smell. It is an amniotic fluid and smell like alcaline as ammonia is an alkaline.

September 4, 2008

Woke up late today and besides I have nothing to do here. No lappy, no internet so I just spend my time reading my pregnancy book and I found a term called PPROM in the book and the symptoms similar to what I am facing now. Just had juice and toast for breakfast and lunch today. The leaking still occur 3-4 hours a time and this worrying me. My husband arrived at 11.00pm and we headed home.

September 5, 2008

Staying at home watching tv and sleep. So bored. Nothing to do. I hope that I can recover in 2-3 days and will be able to go to work on Monday. I still take antibiotics given by the doctor and the dosage will be expired tonite. I will be seeing the doctor again tomorrow.

September 6, 2008

We went to the hospital at 10.00am and the doctor gave me injection to matured the baby’s lung if I had to deliver early. But the risk is so high as the baby may be dead or alive depending on the situation. He gave another antibiotics to replace the one I took earlier. I need to see him again tomorrow for another injection to complete the treatment.

September 7, 2008

Meet the doctor again for another shot of injection and we headed home. Nur arrived with her mom, sister and her baby boy Dani. She gave me Zamzam, our holy water for healing. I drink everytime after performing my prayer and I put some of the water on my belly with a prayer that I can recover soon. The doctor hope that I can stand for another 10 weeks so that I can deliver my baby safely.

September 8, 2008

The leaking only happened in the morning at 7 and stop until 7.30pm. After I had dinner with my husband (I said dinner as I was not fasting), the fluid running out again heavily every time I moved and even a small movement may caused the leak.

September 9, 2008

We went for a second opinion in another clinic as I couldn’t get to meet Dr Hamid Arshad, one of the best gynae in town. The doctor advised us to go straight to government hospital as they have a lot of facilities there. My husband decided to bring me to Hospital Selayang. I was crying all the way as I don’t want to go there. I had a very bad imagination about government hospitals. Huhuhuu…….upon arrival at the gynae clinic there, they referred me to the labour room. After do some scanning and other procedures, they warded me there. Adoiyaiiiiiiii………my first time staying in the hospital. I requested my husband to transfer me to first class ward but for tonite, I need to stay at the 6 bedded 3^rd class ward. I couldn’t even sleep as I was staying with nursing mothers and their babies’ keep crying. Dugaan betoiiii……..the nurses came in every few hours to do check ups as that is normal routine. Punya la byk ganguan. How I am supposed to sleep????????

September 10, 2008

Still warded. Meet a gynae who is also a lecturer with School of Medicine, UiTM. Has some words with him and I asked him if the leaking due to my active lifestyle (shopping, moving around the office, taking stairs). He said that most of the cases due to urine infections and he said it was not my fault and I shouldn’t blame myself for this. He asked my permission if his students could do practical exam with me tomorrow and I agreed. Spending my time whole day reading and sleeping.

September 11, 2008

It’s Alea’s birthday today. I wish she is safe in the US and having good time study there. There was some yellowish color discharged on my pas this morning while I wake up for fajr prayer. I alerted my mom to come as I’m afraid that the discharge is infection. According to the doctor, if I had any color of discharged, the fetus may infect and they have to operate me to bring the baby out. It is to ensure that I am not infected by the infected fetus.

around 10.00am the student and 2 doctors met me for the exam of their student. She was so nervous and the exam ended 15 minutes later.

When I show the discharged to the burse, she said that it is normal due to changes of hormone and I feel relieved. My mom arrived in the evening and she will be visiting me tomorrow.

I couldn’t sleep the whole night as I had back pain and a bit pain on my belly. I rang the nurse and she alerted the doctor. When the doctor look trough the speculum, she saw nothing and I was given 2 paracetamol to reduced the pain. I can sleep for a while but still the pain came on and off. I keep running to the toilet to ease my pain but it doesn't help. I saw some blood while i urinate and this worried me. Hope nothing bad happened to me and my baby

Few words......

2008-10-02T21:22:00.002+08:00

Just to update few frends reading my blog. I gave birth to a baby girl on September 12. She is very premature and i gave birth due to complicated pregnancy called PPROM (Pretrem Premature Rupture of Membrane).

I will update everything soon due to unavailable internet connection at my place.

Do pray for her as my Humaira Safiyyah is still in NICU Hospital Selayang for at least 2-3 months.....

Finance Asia - Asia's Best Companies

2008-08-29T09:51:00.002+08:00

This morning on the desk of Puan Seksiteri of the bg boss', i saw an invitation card to Asia's Best Companies 2008 organize by Finance Asia and JP Morgan. Next to the card was the plaque stated that our conglomerate won The Best Investor Relations (Rank 4th) after Public Bank, Digi and CIMB......

Wowweeeeeeee!!!!!!!!!! at last.....my hard work paid.....The big bosses may not recognize this as my achievement, but for myself, i think that this is the best ever achievement i had for the past 4 years with this conglomerate and merely three and a half year doing IR here. I began with zero knowledge of IR and now i am confident that i have all knowledge that i should know about IR. I can managed everything on my own now....from arranging meeting, handling briefings, organizing roadshows etc....i can handle this alone.......

Thanks to my former boss Hazem and Phoebe for guiding me towards my IR career and i hope i'll become the IR person for this conglomerate in 3 years time. Wait for my return and i'll be the spoke person for this company.

CONGRATULATIONS CHE YAH!!!! U DESERVE IT!

BONUS TIME......

2008-08-27T16:53:00.002+08:00

I received my increment and promotion letter end of July.Alhamdulillah, i got better increment as well as promotion this year. The increment was merely 15% and this made me have to pay the income tax for the first time. Adesssss.......amat tidak suka saya....rugi beb bayor income tax nih.

What i did with my increment this month was paying debt to my mom (banyaknya lagi nk kena setel...bestnya mak...cam ceti plak dia)

Last friday almost 7.00pm i received a phone call from my boss. I was at my in laws' place (my brother in laws' wedding was the day before) to help them clean up the house. Due to that, the phone was off and tak sempat la cek nak jawab call tuh. I wonder why she called me so late. Tapi malas punya pasai, i didn't return her call.

On monday, i resume my work in the office the first thing in the morning my boss called me into her room. I thought that it was nothing as we always gossip to each other. Hehehe....then she handed me that bonus letter saying that the amount of the bonus granted to me blablabla.......

Hatiku berbunga2...hehehe....this is the best bonus and increment i received since i joined this conglomerate. Thank you boss....hehehe

My plan for this very big 5 figures bonus (and large amount of EPF and income tax deduction as well...huhuhuhu.......) will be bayaq hutang, savings (large amount of it) and something for myself..a new handphone maybe....errrmmmmmm........nak chap apa eks? Lemme think of it first....or shall i get a necklace for myself? Yang mana 1 nak pilih nih? But definately bajet for raya increase this year. Bagi mak, mak mentua, pak mentua, adik2 ipaq......adessss.....panjangnyer bajet......once a year pun kan...hopefully i can manage my money well.....simpan siap2 yang nak disimpan...kendian baru spend......

I wish i could......

2008-08-20T16:57:00.002+08:00

My colleague took over my IR role since past few months. From they day she took over, many research houses keep complaining to me with a lt of things about her. Next week will be our quarterly results release and today she is not in the office (MC katanya).

I made a move to ask our new IR Head about the invite as some of the analysts need to plan their trip for this briefing (some of them will fly from Jakarta and Singapore). He ask me to help him to send the invite out. I also told him about the complaints and he mentioned that he has some difficulties when she managed the meetings for him.

Hmmmmmm.........i feel like asking him if i could have my IR roles back as i have no problem with any Analysts/HOR/FMs and Research Houses since i've been doing this for the past 3.5 years. Should i or shouln't i?

If i told my husband about this definately i will kena tembak with him as he will say that i am toooooo kind to help peoples. Let them do.....mana bley la dear.....i can't resist when it comes to IR job....i can't stop myself to help.......adoiiiiiiiii............

Should i ask to be transferred back to IR?????

SHOULD III????
SHOULD IIIII?????????
SHOULD IIIIIIIIIII?????????????????????????????

Me Alone....

2008-08-15T21:55:00.004+08:00

I am alone tonite as my husband left for Alor Star almost an hour ago by bus. I am here staying at Pakngah's house for a nite. Luckily he has a wifi here. Legaaaaaaaaaa.........i can blogging, updating my facebook, checking email etc222....beside i am using the empty room downstairs just for myself. Takdak sapa yang kaco.

Yesterday i went for a breastfeeding course organize by our Taska. So i will share some info with all my frends here in my blog.......hope i can finish the long write up today and publish my writing by tommorrow morning

My pregnancy......the food intake

2008-08-13T16:27:00.003+08:00

My first trimester end with full of joy except for my muscle cramps as well as my mengidam mood for sweet things. Since preggy, I love to have chocolates & ice cream (sorry dear, u can’t stop this. It’s our baby….not me….hehehehe)

I will take ice cream and chocolates at least 2-3 times a week. Soooooo…….yummy….i cant stop taking these lovely sweet little things until today. Luckily I don’t take much sugar for my drinks. No sugar, no creamer. Just a plain milo, fruit juices without sugar. I will only take a teaspoon of sugar with my English tea. No salty food as well (lauk saya kureng garam). Since past 2 antenatal check ups my BP and sugar level are at the normal level and it surprised the doctor. Sorry yer doc…igt saya ni chomel x jaga mkn ka? Summer control….gula, garam….

Since I don’t eat a lot, just a normal 3 meals a day i.e breakfast, lunch and dinner I didn’t gained any weight. Still maintain at 82kg till my last check up. I am so happy for it as I hardly maintain my weight since past few years. Baju lama dah boleh pakai….ketat kat perut jer….marvelesssssss………hehehehe……

Peoples advice me to take balance diet with a lot of fruits, vege and dairy products and the list goes. Fruits and vege fine with me. But dairy products alahaiiiii…….i can only tahan with butter and cheese. Cow’s milk? Ayoyoyoyo…….i anak mak ok!!! Minum susu mak only.

I bought this EnfaMama Chocolate Flavoured pregnancy milk which cost me +-RM40 for half kilo of the powdered milk. At first, I mixed it with hot milo and drank it with few slices of wholemeal bread. Minutes after I finished the drink, all went down to drain. Sudah uwek laaa……I cannot tahan with the ‘lembu’ smell…..eeuuuuuu…….cannot go laaaaa………it took me a week to think what should I do with this expensive drink. So sorry dear, feel like wasting ur money. But I really can’t take it. Only soy everyday.

One day, my very super duper brilliant idea came in. I mixed the powder with soy milk, bananas and ice cubes. Blend it using my new Philips food processor, a wedding gift from my frens and wallaaaaa………a healthy ice blended for a mom-to-be to be enjoyed with her baby in her stomach. So yummy so delicious.

Actually, my eating habits changed a lot. No more asam or jeruk for me now. Tak boleh makan la plakkkkk….previously, I can’t stop myself taking those asam,jeruk, mangga muda,cermai,kedondong etc222…..i will definitely have it with garam belacan or even garam itself. Now I can’t take it at all. Rasa 1 macam la plak. I am waiting to have sugarcane in the next few weeks. I got this from my mom actually. She was carrying me while she mengidam for tebu…tebu yer…bukan ayaq tebu. Sedapnyaaaaaaa…….i can’t wait to go back and ask pak mid for some tebu grown at his backyard.

As I crave for sweet things, my hubby keep warning me not to take a lot of chocolates as he is so worry that our baby will turn chocolate after birth….(come on Papa….it is not scientifically proven…merepek ja sumer tuh…hehehehe…..). Actually, I am prohibited to take all dark coloured drink or food especially coffee and even ‘kicap’ (we called this toyu) as he is so afraid to have a dark coloured baby. (Papa…look at Mama when she was born….looks like Chinese and they said mama was an adopted Japanese baby thrown from the train…I’ll write about this later). I keep arguing about this with my beloved husband….no such thing dear….but definitely she/he will have our small little eyes.

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Pay It Forward 2011

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Che'gu @ Ticher @ Guru

Tagged : Mommy

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Mama's First Day At School

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Mama is going to school

Tak Mungkin Kerana Sayang.....

XOXO

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Dream

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Good News....sad ending

Issues @ Taska/Skul/Nursery/Daycare

Raya....

Mama is busy.........

Sime Darby terbit sekuriti Islam RM4.5b

Oleh Kamarulzaidi Kamiskamarulzaidi@bharian.com.my

Thursday October 15, 2009

Lead managers sign pact for RM4.5b Islamic programmes

Kawan, sahabat dan teman

12 Ramadhan = 12 Months

Pergi Tak Kembali

I don't wanna miss a thing!

1st Zoo Negara Visit

Kedai CheYah

My Darling Princess

Contraception

Still here..........

1st week @ day care

Her 1st day away from Mama

Contraception

Don't Touch My Baby!

Anakku Dah Besar

Kabinet Baru

Tagged from Facebook

Pulangkan!!!!!!!!!!!!

Dan Mama menangis lagi...

Baby Sign Language & Flash Cards

Bohong Sunat kot....

Menobody

Imported Cars, Local Cars n Rear Seat Belt

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TIGAPULUH

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100 Days

Baby Sling

Oral Thrush

Why Do Babies Get Oral Thrush?

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Panic Attack

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Cukur Jambul di Hari Raya

Humaira Safiyyah in action

Runtuh Lagi

Retinopathy of Premature (ROP)

This article is copied from PatientPlus, UK

Retinopathy of Prematurity (Retrolental Fibroplasia)

Complications of treatment

Cicatricial ROP

Our little princess is diagnose with ROP stage 2 and she will be having another check up tommorrow. If the ROP develop, she may need to go for a laser theraphy/cyroteraphy.

Masak - masak

Negotiation

Oleh Kamarulzaidi Kamis
kamarulzaidi@bharian.com.my